One minute I seem to be fine...the next not so much...
It's about five days before I'm suppose to start my period and about a week into the happy pill...
I'm just tired. Sleep is so-so. I wake up and feel like I haven't slept at all. The past couple days, I've been sitting watching TV in the evening and suddenly I start crying. It's awful.
I'm just all over the map emotionally. Happy go lucky and smiling...unhappy and unsure...
What gives? Crazy? Depressed? Medication induced Emotional Stupor? Peri-menopausal? Gigi? Ok, so I suppose I still have some sense of humor. ;)
I'm just...
...Waiting for the rug to be pulled out from under my feet.
...Happy to be I am where I am.
...Afraid to face a new day.
...Can't wait to see what tomorrow brings.
...Not wanting to be alone with my thoughts.
...Cherishing some "Sue Time" to do whatever and contemplate things.
Blah, blah, blah...the contradictions could go on and on...
Yesterday I thought I had the right combo (before I cried off and on for a half hour, then went and had a really nice night with Paul); but today I can't help but feel like I'm up, down and all around.
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