The Package Deal

OMG, I can't believe the difference one day of no happy pill makes. I feel like I am thinking more clearly, I'm not tired and I want to go, go, go!!! Of course, it could be all in my head...but we shall see tomorrow.

I am actually writing because I sort of feel bad for talking smack about Paul's ex. I mean what I wrote earlier today was the truth. She is a slob and the toilet was extremely disgusting...but a part of me still feels bad. I mean, I didn't have to write that. I could have easily left that out...but I didn't. And I'm not sure why I didn't. I mean, she's never done anything malicious or mean (that I know of any way) to me. Who knows what the two of them talked about after the "incident" because I do know she wasn't too happy about it. But both Paul and I have been making an effort to get things back on track and keep them on track.

I guess I realize that I want my relationship with Paul to work... And part of the package that comes with him is his kids which mean the world to him (one of the things I really like about him)...and because of that...the ex comes as part of the package, too.

I dunno...

Guess I'll have to give it more thought (why it's bothering me).

But maybe that's all it is...the package deal.

And maybe that's why I feel bad...because I'm learning to accept it...the entire package deal.