Sleepy

Extremley tired tonight. Seems another side effect of the happy pill is tremors - as in super shaky everything, especially my hands. Most of the day it's not so bad, but every once in a while I just start shaking. It's kinda scary and I'm just about to the point where I want to throw in the towel and say to heck with these meds. I mean, it's just not worth it (is it?). I've not really slept well in two weeks, shaking, up and down moods, etc...

Even though I spouted about our conversation the other night, things with Paul are going really well. I just have to learn to take what he says at face value...without any hidden meaning. I can see that he cares...and I really (really) care about him. I guess I'm just scared that I've jumped back in with both feet. But that's me...jump in full force with whatever I do. Paul... ::sigh:: That would be a dreamy, wistful sigh. ;)

Work is a bit crazy, but I'm very thankful to have a job.

I'm worried about my sis. I wonder how she's doing tonight because I know she had something going on this evening. She was going to address the situation she's facing. I'll have to call her first thing in the a.m.

Honestly, I think the hardest thing I'm dealing with right now is being tired of being tired. I just want to sleep...to be able to fall asleep and to stay asleep once I'm in bed...to be able to fall back to sleep when I wake up after six hours of sleeping... I just want to sleep, sleep, sleep...

And with that...I'm off to bed...and hopefully, some decent sleep.