Short End

I was talking with Drew tonight...

Last weekend we had talked about him coming over Friday (tomorrow) after going over to his brother's for a birthday dinner. His birthday dinner...don't even get me started about him not asking me to come with him... And then spending Saturday evening together having dinner and relaxing together...

Tonight he says he's not sure what's going on tomorrow after dinner...that he may stay night at his brother's. Huh? Okay, so he does have swimming practice early out that way...but still. And then when I ask about Saturday, he teases that yeah we can spend Saturday together...

Drew is a big teaser, but it is really starting to wear on me.

I'm disappointed that he changed his plans and just told me tonight. Big whoop that he may come over...maybe not... It's the leaving me hanging that bothers me...even though he said that if something came up that I should go ahead and go out... Whatever. ::shaking head::

It seems as of late that I am constantly being disappointed. We are obviously on two different pages of the relationship book.

I want more and it is becoming more and more obvious that Drew is not going to give me what I want/need from him. Something has to give and it's not going to be me...

It would be easy for me to go out with someone else... But I don't want someone else, I have no interest in anyone else, I don't even want to look. I want to be with Drew.

Even though I want to be with him...I'm tired of getting the short end of the stick...and as time goes on there is less and less of the stick to hang on to...