All of the Above

Wow...all week I was okay. I kept busy. I was happy. My spirits were lifted and my heart felt light.

Tonight...left alone with my thoughts and the fact that Drew hid his profile has me...very unsettled.

I'm sad.

I can't stop the tears.

I feel lonely.

I want to know why...why hasn't he called, emailed, texted...why he had to lie and cheat...why he had to be so cowardly...why couldn't he have just told me like it was. If he told me like it was, I would have been fine and we may have been able to be friends....

I miss my friend.

I really miss who I thought was my friend.

It shouldn't be this hard. It's just shouldn't.

And I'm hating myself for all of the above because I really do have to move on...