Willingness to Wait

Okay, so I never brought up the match.com thing this weekend... I know, I know... I should have. Looks like I am just a coward.

And I also know that what Mr. Big wrote is what I am floundering on. Am I willing to wait with the possibility of him realizing that I am the one and am willing to wait with the possibility of being left behinds?

As much as I do not like that he looks...the feelings I have for him out far weigh it.

I suppose that I am not confronting the situation because I don't want to lose him. I don't want to push him away...

I honestly believe that he has trust and relationship comittment issues. I say this because Drew has been 100% upfront with me so far...I have no reason to believe that he would lie to me.

Like I've said, the match thing is the only real thing that I don't like... I love the way I feel when I'm with him. I love the way he makes me laugh. I love the way he cuddles up behind me in the morning. I love the way he smiles at me. I love our witty banter...like an old couple who's been together for years. I love the way we can talk about anything and nothing. I love doing things for him and the way he appreciates me for doing them. I love how we walk the dogs, how he calls Zeus his dog, but won't pick up the poop.

There are so many little things that I love about Drew...which allows me to have a willingness to wait. Well, at least for now.