Happy, Happy, Happy

Doing so much better tonight.

I think I just had a bad day...the entire day was crap and it seemed I was sanpping at everyone. Not good.

When I picked up my daughter, she was like...Mom, are you okay. Errr, ummmm...No! Poor thing. After I picked her and her boyfriend up, we went and bought her a strapless bra and then picked up her prom dress from being altered. I'd say it took me a good two hours, a drink, talking to Paul and a tanning session to unwind. At least I was able to relax a bit while tanning. And I was able to talk to Paul for a good half hour. :) Not to mention talk to my g/f from GA tonight. :) All is well in the world of Sue. Gosh, that just sounds ridiculous - the World of Sue! LOL!!!

Any who...I'll be taking my first happy pill tonight, so we'll see if that helps with the anxiety and the other peri-menopausal symptoms. For the past several months, I've been having some pretty strange feelings... Last month I cried everyday for a week and for no reason at all. Just so happened the crying spell was a week before my period. I've been wacked out off and on for longer than I can recall, so I called my dr. Should I mention that over six months ago I spoke with him and he was willing to give me an Rx back then, but I wasn't willing to take it?! I seriously think either it's peri-menopause or I'm just flat out depressed or full of anxiety. Regardless, my OB/GYN thinks I have enough symptoms that he Rx'd me some happy meds. I figured I might as well take him up on the offer given I can't take it emotionally any longer. I'm sure the situation with Paul hasn't helped, but, honestly, I just feel completely out of control regarding my emotional state of being. ::sigh:: Anything to help me feel normal....whatever that may be.

So first happy pill tonight and then...

Happy, happy, happy!