It's all Relative

So Monday Paul and I talked at the game.  We both agreed we were trying to find a middle ground with respect to communication…and I hate to admit it, but I have been having a very difficult time backing off of my normal mode of communication.

I like to talk and communicate throughout the day with my significant other.  I mean, at a bare minimum, I think I would like to talk at some point in the evening - talk about the day, what's going on tomorrow, anything good happen, anything bad, blah, blah, blah…  It doesn't have to be some mind blowing discussion, it could be just chit chatting about this and that.  It just seems natural to me to want to share may day and share the day's events with the special someone in my life.

Plus, I guess it's just what I am used to with my relationships.  With McD, he stayed with me every other week and the days he didn't stay with me, we talked on the phone every night at 9 or 9:30.  With Drew, we emailed throughout the day and either saw each other or talked at some point in the evening…although with Drew it not only became a touch base call, it also became a I don't trust you so I have to keep tabs on you call.

The past few days, not talking to/texting Paul on a regular basis is a bit unnerving for me.  I realize that we've only been dating for a little over two months, but it just seems unnatural to me not to share my day and hear about his.  Okay, so I saw him Monday.  Tuesday we exchanged two text messages.  Yesterday (Wednesday) I actually talked to him after work…because I know I won't be talking to him today (Thursday).  But who's keeping track of things???  Looks like Gigi is!  LOL!!!

I would hate to think that my wanting to communicate so much with Paul is an after effect of the Drew saga…but perhaps it is.  I mean, I trust Paul completely… 

Or maybe I look at taking a few minutes time to talk as a way of saying that I'm important and that I matter to him….and by us not talking so much I'm looking at it as the opposite message?  Which I know is not the case because he's told me so on more than one occasion.

And maybe I am just going through an adjustment period.  I mean, I used to talk to my daughter everyday…  I used to call her everyday - although I never actually did talk to her on a regular basis, I would leave a message.  This was when she was much younger and didn't have a cell phone.  And that was unnerving as well.  It took a long while to get used to not talking to her all the time.  Maybe I'm just going through something similar with Paul - adjusting from my what used to be normal mode of operation to that of a new normal. 

I suppose what is normal for one, isn't normal for all. 

 

It is, after all, all relative now, isn't it?

 

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I wrote the above while sitting in my 2 hour audio meeting snooze fest yesterday.

 

Yesterday, I limited my texting and didn't call Paul.  It wasn't as nerve-wracking for me to lay low yesterday, so maybe I just needed some time to adjust and think things through.  I did text him before his hockey game yesterday evening wishing him luck.  Good thing because he was snoozing away and the beeping woke him up...I know this because HE actually called ME while on the way to his game.  He also texted me last night after the game saying he was thinking about me and looking forward to the weekend.  Awww...  Maybe backing off is a good thing! ;)

 

Like I said...it's all relative... :)