How Dare You

How dare you?  How dare you come back into my life with such a vengeance?  

The last time you came into my life like this it just about killed me.  You infiltrated every area of my life and left me helpless.  I lost time…so much time.  I missed events.  I missed work.  I don’t remember days of my life because of you.  

What’s worse is that no one but me can see you!  You are invisible to everyone but me!  

On the outside I look okay.  Like nothing is wrong.  But inside…inside you have me screaming for relief!  Screaming for you to go!  Screaming to stop the torment!

You come and go when you please.  But mostly you stay and make yourself at home.  

I’m begging, yes, begging you to go and never come back.  Not even for a short visit.  No calling or texting either.  I am cutting you off from all contact with me.

But I know you won’t listen.  You’ll still come and go as you please.  Like the thief that you are, you’ll rob me of more of my life.

You are relentless.  You’ve captured my head in an ice pick vice and keep turning it tighter with every second that passes.  You’ve amplified my senses of sound and smell to the Nth degree.  My fingers are tingling and at times my body shakes.  Tears stream down my face.  My stomach turns and reals but not in disgust of you but rather because of the pain and sheer exhaustion.  My hands tremble, and not out of fear, but from some internal reaction I have no control over.  My eyes are like hot coals ready to burst into flame and light becomes unbearable.  Putting words together is difficult and my concentration is fuzzy, it’s any wonder that I can actually type this at all.  Fighting you off is exhausting.  Everything, yes, absolutely everything becomes a chore when you are around.

I am praying that I am your only victim.  That you do not try to slink into my daughter’s or glamson’s lives.  I know you are extremely devious and will attack when my guard is down, but I will turn on you and hold you if you even try to go after them.  I would gladly keep you with me if it will keep you away from them.

I ask again, how dare you?  How dare you!