It's late and I'm tired...but I don't want to go to bed...even though I really do...
My dogs are sitting here breathing their bad doggie breath on me and whining...pet me! pet me!
I was planning on writing a bit to help me get some negative emotions out...but I don't think I'm going to be allowed to! LOL!!!
Tomorrow is another day...
Dog gone it! LOL!!! ;P
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Marathon Stats Take III
Will they ever stabalize the number of runners?
Distance Marathon 26.2 Miles
Clock Time 4:16:24
Chip Time 4:08:06
Pace 9:29
Clock Time 4:16:24
Chip Time 4:08:06
Pace 9:29
Overall Place 1711 / 3808 (Top 44.9% of all marathoners)
Gender Place 394 / 1326 (Top 29.7% of all women marathoners)
Division Place 66 / 212 (Top 31.1% of women marathoners 40-44 yrs old)
First Timers Division Place 21 / 89 (Top 23.6% of 1st time women marathoners 40-44 yrs old)
Gender Place 394 / 1326 (Top 29.7% of all women marathoners)
Division Place 66 / 212 (Top 31.1% of women marathoners 40-44 yrs old)
First Timers Division Place 21 / 89 (Top 23.6% of 1st time women marathoners 40-44 yrs old)
Mile Marker Times (minutes per mile pace)
6.2 Mi 57:24 (9:16 pace)
Half 2:00:43 (9:13 pace)
12.2 Mi 1:51:55 (9:10 pace)
21.8 Mi 3:23:25 (9:19 pace)
6.2 Mi 57:24 (9:16 pace)
Half 2:00:43 (9:13 pace)
12.2 Mi 1:51:55 (9:10 pace)
21.8 Mi 3:23:25 (9:19 pace)
Last 4.4 miles in 45:00ish at 10:13 pace
Wtrmi 9:07 pace (Mile through the Tunnel between Windsor and Detroit)
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Single
It really hit me this a.m. as I was laying in bed that as of last night...
...I'm single...
I'm 42 freakin' years old...I don't want to be single!
Ugh.
...single...
...I'm single...
I'm 42 freakin' years old...I don't want to be single!
Ugh.
...single...
Monday, October 26, 2009
Two Different Places
Seems the relationship road was just not meant for Paul and I.
Today it hit me as to why we possibly have been having such difficulty. We are at two different places in regards to the relationship continuum.
During our time together, it seems I have been two steps, two yards, two miles...farther down the continuum than Paul has been.
Because I am farther down the continuum, I expect certain things. I expect certain behaviors. I expect the other person to be in the same place I am...
And when the other person isn't that far down the continuum...they don't expect the same things...
...and there-in lies the disconnect.
The disconnect can lead to all sorts of problems...as Paul and I have learned.
We were disconnected, even after all this time, and it's sad.
It's not easy.
It's hard...for both of us.
It breaks my heart that it's ending up like this...but we have been in two different places for too long...and both of us realize it.
Two people...two different places... :(
Today it hit me as to why we possibly have been having such difficulty. We are at two different places in regards to the relationship continuum.
During our time together, it seems I have been two steps, two yards, two miles...farther down the continuum than Paul has been.
Because I am farther down the continuum, I expect certain things. I expect certain behaviors. I expect the other person to be in the same place I am...
And when the other person isn't that far down the continuum...they don't expect the same things...
...and there-in lies the disconnect.
The disconnect can lead to all sorts of problems...as Paul and I have learned.
We were disconnected, even after all this time, and it's sad.
It's not easy.
It's hard...for both of us.
It breaks my heart that it's ending up like this...but we have been in two different places for too long...and both of us realize it.
Two people...two different places... :(
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Feeling like a Yo-Yo
On again, off again...again and again...
I found these quotes back at the beginning of August. I think I'll finally post them today.
...thinking silence is worse and hurts more than the truth...
...same story, same excuse, different day...
...I'm not a toy...you can't pick me up and put me down when you want to...
...wondering why the first person I think of in the a.m., may be the first person I want to forget about...
....why do I bother...and why didn't I learn the first time...
...playing referee between my head and my heart...
...time has a way of showing us what really matters...
There is a lot I haven't written about...let's just say I'm tired of feeling like a yo-yo and that my feelings are raw and exposed right now.
I found these quotes back at the beginning of August. I think I'll finally post them today.
...thinking silence is worse and hurts more than the truth...
...same story, same excuse, different day...
...I'm not a toy...you can't pick me up and put me down when you want to...
...wondering why the first person I think of in the a.m., may be the first person I want to forget about...
....why do I bother...and why didn't I learn the first time...
...playing referee between my head and my heart...
...time has a way of showing us what really matters...
There is a lot I haven't written about...let's just say I'm tired of feeling like a yo-yo and that my feelings are raw and exposed right now.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Updated Stats
Updated Stats For the Detroit Marathon:
Distance MARARTHON 26.2 miles
Clock Time 4:16:25
Chip Time 4:08:07
Overall Pace 9:29
Overall Place 1702 / 3803 (in the top 44.75% of all marathoners)
Gender Place 391 / 1325 (in the top 29.5% of all women)
Division Place 65 / 212 (in the top 30% of women in my age group)
Mile Marker Times (minutes per mile pace)
6.2 Mi 57:24 (9:16 pace)
Half 2:00:43 (9:13 pace)
12.2 Mi 1:51:55 (9:10 pace)
21.8 Mi 3:23:25 (9:19 pace)
Last 4.4 miles in 45:00ish at 10:13 pace - seems I hit the wall and ran out of steam!
Wtrmi 9:07 pace (Mile through the Tunnel between Windsor and Detroit)
Distance MARARTHON 26.2 miles
Clock Time 4:16:25
Chip Time 4:08:07
Overall Pace 9:29
Overall Place 1702 / 3803 (in the top 44.75% of all marathoners)
Gender Place 391 / 1325 (in the top 29.5% of all women)
Division Place 65 / 212 (in the top 30% of women in my age group)
Mile Marker Times (minutes per mile pace)
6.2 Mi 57:24 (9:16 pace)
Half 2:00:43 (9:13 pace)
12.2 Mi 1:51:55 (9:10 pace)
21.8 Mi 3:23:25 (9:19 pace)
Last 4.4 miles in 45:00ish at 10:13 pace - seems I hit the wall and ran out of steam!
Wtrmi 9:07 pace (Mile through the Tunnel between Windsor and Detroit)
Monday, October 19, 2009
Marathon Finish
Still too tired to write too much...and it's sort of bittersweet with the three who lost their lives yesterday.
Here is a clip of the finish...I'm around 23:50ish...clock time of 4:16:24. I have on a Blue Top which is unzipped at the neck, Black Capris and a pony. I wave my arms up really fast and then keep on going...Hilarious!
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Here is a clip of the finish...I'm around 23:50ish...clock time of 4:16:24. I have on a Blue Top which is unzipped at the neck, Black Capris and a pony. I wave my arms up really fast and then keep on going...Hilarious!
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Sunday, October 18, 2009
I AM A MARATHON RUNNER!!!!
I think I did pretty good...considering it was my first..
Chip Time 4:08:06
Gender Place 398 / 1328
Division Place 67 / 212
Pace 9:29
Too tired to write more...stay tuned for details! :)
Chip Time 4:08:06
Updated counts for marathon only:
Overall Place 1709 / 3796Gender Place 398 / 1328
Division Place 67 / 212
Pace 9:29
Too tired to write more...stay tuned for details! :)
Saturday, October 17, 2009
The Countdown
Holy $hit!!!!! The marathon is less than 22 hours away!!!!
This time tomorrow (9:30 a.m.), I'll be two hours into the marathon...with hopefully 13.1 miles completed.
Weather is supposed to be 31* F at the start and 41* F at the finish...what to wear, what to wear... I'll be wearing my running capris for sure, but I'm stressing about how many layers I need up top. Two for sure...maybe three! I wore three layers during my 35* F run - sleeveless tech top, long sleeve tech top, cold weather long sleeve jacketish tech top. I'm thinking that's what I'm going to wear for the race, too. Three layers. I think. Hmmmm.... ACK! LOL!!!
This is completely unreal. All these months and hours and miles of training and mental preparation culminating in one day. One moment. One start. One finish. Just the thought of it takes my breath away.
Let's see....
I know I've ran over 300 miles since I started logging my training. That would be like running passed Chicago, IL...or Niagara, Ontario...or over the Mackinaw Bridge...or down passed Cincinnati, OH... Unreal!
I've ran in 92*F, 35*F, in the sun, in the rain, in the wind, in the humidity, in the morning, in the after noon, in the evening and even in the dark!
I've ran when I was happy, sad, mad, ho-hum, not motivated, completely motivated, full of energy, exhausted and even when I was sick.
I run alone and sometimes I run with others. I tried a running group - they were too fast; although I could probably keep up with them now. I run with my girlfriend who is running the half - normally slower than normal cause we like to talk so much! I've run with Paul on his roller blades...
I've met some really great people and joined a really supportive group, JustFinish, online. Oh and I can't forget about tackling Mike on my 18 miler and running most of the 20 miles with him! LOL!!!!
I have a routine for all my long runs - any run over 9 miles... Before I go to bed I have a soy protein shake and then one about an hour before I get ready to leave for my run. For the extra long runs over 12 miles, I add a quick shake if I wake up during the night to use the bathroom.
I always run with three pieces of gum in my mouth.
For the extra long runs, I started take two Motrin to keep away the aches and pains that may sneak up on me.
I listen to my iPod and make up words to some of the songs... Well, switch them around to include "runner" or "marathon" in them to help keep me motivated.
I've dedicated miles of my runs to those people who have passed on or can no longer run. I have a list, in my head, of folks I'll be dedicating miles to during the marathon.
And let's not forget about the outpouring of support from everyone - thank you so much. I love it and it's soooo uplifting! :) XO!
Well, I really need to walk away from the computer. My OCD is setting in and I need to try to focus on something other than 7:15 a.m. tomorrow morning!
21 hours and counting!!!
This time tomorrow (9:30 a.m.), I'll be two hours into the marathon...with hopefully 13.1 miles completed.
Weather is supposed to be 31* F at the start and 41* F at the finish...what to wear, what to wear... I'll be wearing my running capris for sure, but I'm stressing about how many layers I need up top. Two for sure...maybe three! I wore three layers during my 35* F run - sleeveless tech top, long sleeve tech top, cold weather long sleeve jacketish tech top. I'm thinking that's what I'm going to wear for the race, too. Three layers. I think. Hmmmm.... ACK! LOL!!!
This is completely unreal. All these months and hours and miles of training and mental preparation culminating in one day. One moment. One start. One finish. Just the thought of it takes my breath away.
Let's see....
I know I've ran over 300 miles since I started logging my training. That would be like running passed Chicago, IL...or Niagara, Ontario...or over the Mackinaw Bridge...or down passed Cincinnati, OH... Unreal!
I've ran in 92*F, 35*F, in the sun, in the rain, in the wind, in the humidity, in the morning, in the after noon, in the evening and even in the dark!
I've ran when I was happy, sad, mad, ho-hum, not motivated, completely motivated, full of energy, exhausted and even when I was sick.
I run alone and sometimes I run with others. I tried a running group - they were too fast; although I could probably keep up with them now. I run with my girlfriend who is running the half - normally slower than normal cause we like to talk so much! I've run with Paul on his roller blades...
I've met some really great people and joined a really supportive group, JustFinish, online. Oh and I can't forget about tackling Mike on my 18 miler and running most of the 20 miles with him! LOL!!!!
I have a routine for all my long runs - any run over 9 miles... Before I go to bed I have a soy protein shake and then one about an hour before I get ready to leave for my run. For the extra long runs over 12 miles, I add a quick shake if I wake up during the night to use the bathroom.
I always run with three pieces of gum in my mouth.
For the extra long runs, I started take two Motrin to keep away the aches and pains that may sneak up on me.
I listen to my iPod and make up words to some of the songs... Well, switch them around to include "runner" or "marathon" in them to help keep me motivated.
I've dedicated miles of my runs to those people who have passed on or can no longer run. I have a list, in my head, of folks I'll be dedicating miles to during the marathon.
And let's not forget about the outpouring of support from everyone - thank you so much. I love it and it's soooo uplifting! :) XO!
Well, I really need to walk away from the computer. My OCD is setting in and I need to try to focus on something other than 7:15 a.m. tomorrow morning!
21 hours and counting!!!
Friday, October 16, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Greiving
Got up this morning and went running in 35* F weather. It actually wasn't that bad. I suppose it would have been better if I was running my normal speed. My entire body aches right now...knees, back... I ran with my girlfriend and she runs slower than I do. It's so hard on my body when I run slower...I know, doesn't make sense to me either...but oh well... The run is over an done with. It's time for taping now. No big runs until next Sunday - The Detroit Marathon is a mere 6 days and 11 hours away!!!! Cool, cool! I can't wait!! :) Now I just need to get into the chiropractor!
Paul texted me, this morning, while we were running asking if I was okay. Ummmm...NO/MAYBE, but I will be. I called him back (hate to text) told him I was alright...that I hadn't slit my wrists or anything. It was an okay conversation...it was nice talking with him. We talked for a while about nothing really... He asked if I needed a ride to the marathon. I'm just not ready to make any decisions about anything...I'm processing and I'm sad. I told him I would be in touch.
I need to grieve. Grieve what was. Grieve what could have been.
Now I'm just sitting here tonight and feeling really sorry for myself. Oh woe is Sue... All alone... I absolutely hate this. I miss him right now.
But I know there are far worse things in life that could be going on in my life. I have it pretty good actually. Good job. Nice house. Car. My health. Friends and family...
I think I may make some popcorn and have a nice glass of wine. I need to take my mind off things...so I can stop crying and leave the "pity party of one" behind me.
Maybe I'll watch this again....
Completely inspiring!
I know I'm a strong person. I just don't feel all that strong right now. I feel meek and helpless. It's very debilitating and I know I'm doing it to myself. I just can't help it right now.
I do know that I'll get through this...one way or another. Just like all the other hurdles I've passed over throughout the years.
I want to finish strong and be happy.
But for now I'm grieving...
Paul texted me, this morning, while we were running asking if I was okay. Ummmm...NO/MAYBE, but I will be. I called him back (hate to text) told him I was alright...that I hadn't slit my wrists or anything. It was an okay conversation...it was nice talking with him. We talked for a while about nothing really... He asked if I needed a ride to the marathon. I'm just not ready to make any decisions about anything...I'm processing and I'm sad. I told him I would be in touch.
I need to grieve. Grieve what was. Grieve what could have been.
Now I'm just sitting here tonight and feeling really sorry for myself. Oh woe is Sue... All alone... I absolutely hate this. I miss him right now.
But I know there are far worse things in life that could be going on in my life. I have it pretty good actually. Good job. Nice house. Car. My health. Friends and family...
I think I may make some popcorn and have a nice glass of wine. I need to take my mind off things...so I can stop crying and leave the "pity party of one" behind me.
Maybe I'll watch this again....
Completely inspiring!
I know I'm a strong person. I just don't feel all that strong right now. I feel meek and helpless. It's very debilitating and I know I'm doing it to myself. I just can't help it right now.
I do know that I'll get through this...one way or another. Just like all the other hurdles I've passed over throughout the years.
I want to finish strong and be happy.
But for now I'm grieving...
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Longer Arms?
So it's been quite a day...
This a.m. was really rough. I cried. I was sad. I was wallowing in self pity about being alone.
I'm still not happy about the situation.
We were together for almost 10 months. I don't hate him. I don't wish him ill. I think he is a good person, just not the person for me...and the feeling was mutual. There was much said, but out of respect for him, I won't go into details. I will say that I was a bit put off by some of things that were said and I suppose what was said made me realize even more just how different we are and how differently we view relationships.
Sometimes I think I'm just better off being alone. That the heartache isn't worth it. That if I haven't found the one by now that I probably never will. That maybe my expectations are just too high.
All I want is someone to love me for who I am and for me to love them the same in return. For us to communicate and be best friends. For us to want each other and no one else. To be in sync (most of the time). To laugh and tease and cry... To feel like I'm loved and that I matter. Obviously, quality time is what's important to me.
I'm just not sure anymore.
I don't know.
I don't understand why it has to be so f'in hard.
Is it too much to ask to be happy with someone?
I just want to be happy...
...and this illusive happiness always seems to be just beyond my reach.
I'm beginning to think that maybe I need longer arms!
This a.m. was really rough. I cried. I was sad. I was wallowing in self pity about being alone.
I'm still not happy about the situation.
We were together for almost 10 months. I don't hate him. I don't wish him ill. I think he is a good person, just not the person for me...and the feeling was mutual. There was much said, but out of respect for him, I won't go into details. I will say that I was a bit put off by some of things that were said and I suppose what was said made me realize even more just how different we are and how differently we view relationships.
Sometimes I think I'm just better off being alone. That the heartache isn't worth it. That if I haven't found the one by now that I probably never will. That maybe my expectations are just too high.
All I want is someone to love me for who I am and for me to love them the same in return. For us to communicate and be best friends. For us to want each other and no one else. To be in sync (most of the time). To laugh and tease and cry... To feel like I'm loved and that I matter. Obviously, quality time is what's important to me.
I'm just not sure anymore.
I don't know.
I don't understand why it has to be so f'in hard.
Is it too much to ask to be happy with someone?
I just want to be happy...
...and this illusive happiness always seems to be just beyond my reach.
I'm beginning to think that maybe I need longer arms!
First Run in Six Days
Oh yeah baby!!!!!
Rockin' it down Hines today...
9.26 miles in 1:22:00 at a 8:51/m pace!!!!
Sub-9 for 9 miles...a four hour marathon could be in my future!!!!! That would be a 9:09/m pace...possible?!?!?!
We'll find out next Sunday morning!!!!!
Rockin' it down Hines today...
9.26 miles in 1:22:00 at a 8:51/m pace!!!!
Sub-9 for 9 miles...a four hour marathon could be in my future!!!!! That would be a 9:09/m pace...possible?!?!?!
We'll find out next Sunday morning!!!!!
Sad
I'm sad today.
Paul and I decided that we are just too different to continue on with a long term relationship.
I guess deep down, I knew this. But now that it's here...
I'm just sad.
Paul and I decided that we are just too different to continue on with a long term relationship.
I guess deep down, I knew this. But now that it's here...
I'm just sad.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Still Feel Like $hit
I think that about sums it up.
I did go to dr...and am taking antibiotic.
Hopefully the antibiotic will help...but I'm so tired of feeling like $hit!
I went to chiropractor today, too...
I am taking extra vitamin C.
Everyone is telling me how bad/tired/sick I look. Very uplifting~ ;P
Plus, no running yesterday or today either. (Ha, ya knew I'd get running into the post some how!)
WILL I EVER GET BETTER?!?!?!
Ah well...off to bed.
I did go to dr...and am taking antibiotic.
Hopefully the antibiotic will help...but I'm so tired of feeling like $hit!
I went to chiropractor today, too...
I am taking extra vitamin C.
Everyone is telling me how bad/tired/sick I look. Very uplifting~ ;P
Plus, no running yesterday or today either. (Ha, ya knew I'd get running into the post some how!)
WILL I EVER GET BETTER?!?!?!
Ah well...off to bed.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Rough Week...ending in a Rough Run
Wow, it's been a really rough week. I've been feeling sick and missing my runs...work has been crazy, my house is a disaster area...the list goes on.
The last couple days I've been feeling somewhat better, so I've sort of caught up on my running. Ran an easy 5 yesterday and it was a cool, drizzley day. Ran 12.2 today with my girlfriend. OMG, toughest run yet...harder than the 20 miles last weekend. Okay, the 90*+ F day run may have been harder! Guess I'm still not 100% and I am sure feeling it now... I am just exhausted. Every muscle in my body is screaming, my stomach is a little upset from the energy bar I ate after the run and I have an inkling of a headache. I know, I know...gimme some cheese to go along with all the whining.
I'm now in the taper stage of training. The taper...cutting back on mileage to let my body repair itself for the big day. Wow. The Big Day. October 18th. Two weeks from now...11 short days from today. And, at this time, next Sunday, I should be enjoying a beer after running 26.2 miles!!!!!!
The day is on it's way...I have a birthday party and then Paul wants to get together...but I just don't know if I can make it...
Guess all I really have to say is...
...it's been a rough week...
The last couple days I've been feeling somewhat better, so I've sort of caught up on my running. Ran an easy 5 yesterday and it was a cool, drizzley day. Ran 12.2 today with my girlfriend. OMG, toughest run yet...harder than the 20 miles last weekend. Okay, the 90*+ F day run may have been harder! Guess I'm still not 100% and I am sure feeling it now... I am just exhausted. Every muscle in my body is screaming, my stomach is a little upset from the energy bar I ate after the run and I have an inkling of a headache. I know, I know...gimme some cheese to go along with all the whining.
I'm now in the taper stage of training. The taper...cutting back on mileage to let my body repair itself for the big day. Wow. The Big Day. October 18th. Two weeks from now...11 short days from today. And, at this time, next Sunday, I should be enjoying a beer after running 26.2 miles!!!!!!
The day is on it's way...I have a birthday party and then Paul wants to get together...but I just don't know if I can make it...
Guess all I really have to say is...
...it's been a rough week...
Thursday, October 1, 2009
No Time Off for Being Sick
From yesterday:
Oh boy...still feeling like crapola.
After a yummy dinner with Paul (which he cooked - so double bonus!), went to bed Monday night...woke up during the night feeling tired and head a bit - well, like it was too dry in the house. I thought, great, I better not be getting sick. Woke up Tuesday feeling really bad - sinus pressure, hot/burning eyes and extremely tired. Didn't want to go into work, but had big Director / Vice President presentation to finish. I figured I'd go in and then head home. Not the case, wound up feeling a bit better after lunch, but then quickly deteriorating again.
Felt ran down all night and my head was stuffy. Went to dinner with Paul, had a litre of margaritas and didn't even feel the effects of the alcohol because I was so freakin' tired! Dropped Paul off and went home and got to bed early.
I took a couple Nyquil gel tabs and got under the covers...immediately fell asleep. Woke up a couple times...runny nose, achy... All I could think was...Nooooo! My training! LOL! It's all about the training! ;)
This a.m. I could barely roll out of bed. I took an extra half hour and then finally got up...only to find that someone peed in the living room. OMG, livid and tired. Out came the mop. Lovely... Dang, dogs!
I am just feeling utterly like crap. With vacation time being taken away earlier this year, I barely have enough time to cover the rest of the Ford Holidays. Hunting Day...oh yeah, a Ford Holiday that I have to take a vacation day for! Grrrrr!!!!!! Anyway, I would have stayed home...but I don't get any personal time and I don't feel like taking a vacation day which I'm going to need later this year.
I talked to my sis earlier today and she said I sounded awful. Plus, my cubie even said that I look bad today. Great. And I even tried to look better - washed my hair and put on a bit of make-up. Yesterday, I took a shower, but just threw my hair in a ponytail with no makeup...and I look worse today?! Sheesh! LOL!!!
Sooooo...now I'm debating on what to do with regards to work. I'm just exhausted...but I'm hording vacation time. I'm sort of planning on taking the day after the marathon off. That's 8 Hrs. Hunting Day...another 8. Then there's Christmas Shutdown...32 hours... Crap, that's a total of 48 hours needed for the rest of the year. I have 15.82 accrued to date. Ugh. I am not happy. I want to go home and I feel like I could just cry right now.
Just seems there is no time off for being sick. :(
Oh boy...still feeling like crapola.
After a yummy dinner with Paul (which he cooked - so double bonus!), went to bed Monday night...woke up during the night feeling tired and head a bit - well, like it was too dry in the house. I thought, great, I better not be getting sick. Woke up Tuesday feeling really bad - sinus pressure, hot/burning eyes and extremely tired. Didn't want to go into work, but had big Director / Vice President presentation to finish. I figured I'd go in and then head home. Not the case, wound up feeling a bit better after lunch, but then quickly deteriorating again.
Felt ran down all night and my head was stuffy. Went to dinner with Paul, had a litre of margaritas and didn't even feel the effects of the alcohol because I was so freakin' tired! Dropped Paul off and went home and got to bed early.
I took a couple Nyquil gel tabs and got under the covers...immediately fell asleep. Woke up a couple times...runny nose, achy... All I could think was...Nooooo! My training! LOL! It's all about the training! ;)
This a.m. I could barely roll out of bed. I took an extra half hour and then finally got up...only to find that someone peed in the living room. OMG, livid and tired. Out came the mop. Lovely... Dang, dogs!
I am just feeling utterly like crap. With vacation time being taken away earlier this year, I barely have enough time to cover the rest of the Ford Holidays. Hunting Day...oh yeah, a Ford Holiday that I have to take a vacation day for! Grrrrr!!!!!! Anyway, I would have stayed home...but I don't get any personal time and I don't feel like taking a vacation day which I'm going to need later this year.
I talked to my sis earlier today and she said I sounded awful. Plus, my cubie even said that I look bad today. Great. And I even tried to look better - washed my hair and put on a bit of make-up. Yesterday, I took a shower, but just threw my hair in a ponytail with no makeup...and I look worse today?! Sheesh! LOL!!!
Sooooo...now I'm debating on what to do with regards to work. I'm just exhausted...but I'm hording vacation time. I'm sort of planning on taking the day after the marathon off. That's 8 Hrs. Hunting Day...another 8. Then there's Christmas Shutdown...32 hours... Crap, that's a total of 48 hours needed for the rest of the year. I have 15.82 accrued to date. Ugh. I am not happy. I want to go home and I feel like I could just cry right now.
Just seems there is no time off for being sick. :(
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