Finding it Difficult to Concentrate...

...on anything besides Drew and Denver (Can't refer to him by name because it's so uncommon and easily searchable!)...

I've been in such a melancholy mood today.

Monday evening Drew came over for dinner and then Tuesday when we got up, we went to th Rec. Center again. Did I mention that Drew has a toothbrush in my toothbrush holder?!?! How the hell did that happen?! LOL!!! After working out we laid out for a while afterwards. He asked if I would go with him to watch him do an open water swim and I said okay. So, I got up early, went to the store for beer and pretzels... Drew picked me up around 7:45 a.m. and we went out to Kensington Park. Drew did his 4 mile open water swim while I laid on the blanket sunning myself, singing along to Kid Rock and did a couple word finds... We then laid out a bit more, Drew fished...it was very relaxing and we had a great time together...as always... Afterwards, we went out for lunch - yummy and filling! Drew dropped me at my place and said he would come back around 7 p.m. He left without so much as a kiss or hug...just like him... So I let my food digest and then went out on a 5.3 mile run, showered and was ready just in time for Drew to arrive. We were going to walk the dogs, Drew loves them!, but it looked like rain, so we stayed in, had some beer and played scrabble, laid around, went to bed...this a.m. we got up and didn't get out of bed until almost 11 a.m.

Last night, I got a text from Denver, three texts to be exact, asking me to text him ASAP. So I texted him back when I fed the dogs at 6 a.m. Then I dreamt about meeting Denver, he was young, like I remember him from 25 years ago... I was running around naked trying to find my phone and freaking out because I was naked and couldn't find my phone...weird! Denver texted back around 10 a.m. that his mom passed away and I texted him after Drew left. I did tell Drew that a friend texted me last night when I got back in bed at 6 a.m. and that his mom passed away when we finally got out of bed.

Denver and I talked briefly today. I think we are going to meet this weekend at some point. I was so sad for him/excited that we were going to meet that I forgot to ask how long he was going to be in town and when he thought we may actually meet - Doh!

Since Drew left and Denver called, I've been so melancholy... All I can think about is the two of them...

Drew because he is here and I think we are both starting to like each other...

Denver because I am sad for him and want to know (BADLY!) whether or not we actually click in person...and because I like him, too...

And both Drew and Denver, because if Denver and I actually do click like I think we will...I have no clue what will happen.

Right now I know that Denver and I are having the same feelings because we've actually talked/written each other about it.

Drew and I really haven't talked and things seem to be going very well, but because Drew isn't touchy/feely/kissy type guy, it's very difficult for me to read how he is feeling. I mean even this morning when he was leaving he really didn't hug me like a boyfriend would hug a girlfriend. Or at least how I think a boyfriend/girlfriend should hug! LOL! But we do talk about everything. He has told me that his friends are asking what's going on with us...that he doesn't bring women around his friends....and he has been doing all of that with me... So... ????

It's been about two months since Drew and I started seeing each other. It's been around three or so months since Denver and I started corresponding and talking.

It's all so confusing to me... I guess I'm not used to the dating scene. I dunno.

Then there's Joe, the cute funny bald buy... He's really nice and we get along great, too. One of his workers saw us out at dinner the other day and apparently mentioned to all of Joe's workers that he was seen out with a "hot chick" Me? A hot chick??? Okay! LOL!! Better than being called an old bag or a pop tart I suppose... ;)

So that's the long and the short of it. I like Drew. I like Denver. And just getting to know Joe. I feel like I'm on an episode of the Bachelorette!

How do people do this dating thing and stay sane? I feel like I'm losing my freakin' mind! Oh, wait, I've already lost it! LOL!!!!

I do know that I want to be sure that I am finding the right man. I do not want to go another year or more of dating one person only to come to the conclusion that he isn't the one...

And with the exception of today...I've been having a lot of fun lately... Even my workout today sucked, no concentration...

Any who, guess I should make some dinner and feed the dogs. I think I'm just going to lay low tonight. I don't think I'd be very good company for my girlfriends, so I'm flyin' solo!

Maybe after I eat I'll feel better...

Turkey Taco Salad - yum - my favorite!!! :)

...and be able to concentrate...