Phew...Finally! LOL!!!
Rough wake up this a.m. after being off for four days....and a long day at work....followed by a 5 mile run in 38*F (feels like 33*F) weather....
What more could a girl want than a pair of Brooks and the open road????
...and that, my friends, is it for the month of the November.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Sunday, November 29, 2009
One more...
post until the end of National Bloggers Posting month...
Ugh. Can't wait. Right now I feel compelled to post even if it's gibberish.
Ran 5 miles this a.m. and then went and finished cleaning my grandma's house. Now her house is cleaner than mine! Oy! LOL!!!
Now to find the time to clean mine...
No running tomorrow...have to get the leaves done. There are just clumps here and there, but need to get them up before the snow!
Ah well...one more post and then...back to normal!
Ugh. Can't wait. Right now I feel compelled to post even if it's gibberish.
Ran 5 miles this a.m. and then went and finished cleaning my grandma's house. Now her house is cleaner than mine! Oy! LOL!!!
Now to find the time to clean mine...
No running tomorrow...have to get the leaves done. There are just clumps here and there, but need to get them up before the snow!
Ah well...one more post and then...back to normal!
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Draining
What an emotionally draining day.
Too tired to write about it now...
Grandparents, Paul, just lots of things.
Too tired to write about it now...
Grandparents, Paul, just lots of things.
Friday, November 27, 2009
Detroit Turkey Trot 10K
Gobble, Gobble!!!!!
Got up at 5:45 a.m. to pouring rain and 43* F...and dreading the 10k run through Detroit... I wear my old running shoes because I don't want to get the newer ones soggy and pack three changes of clothes to take with me. I don't want to be waiting around or driving home in soggy clothes.
My girlfriend, C, picks me up shortly after 6 a.m. and we head into the D. (That would be the wonderful city of Detroit!) As we're driving, the closer we get to the D, the more it looks like it hasn't even rained! So I'm thinking I must have a storm cloud over my house! LOL!!!
We get downtown and I have a parking pass for Cobo Garage, so we wait in a long, long line of cars. It was worth it because we just had a short jaunt from the car to the inside of Cobo. We used the restroom and met up with my manager and his son. Just so happens my manager has a crush on C and was paging her to meet up!
We stretch a bit and chat and before we know it, it's time to head over toward the start line. We follow the masses of people.
We arrive to the start area, but are no where near the start line. I'm worried because I was wanting to make good time and there were thousands, literally, in front of us. So, they are chatting and all I can do is think about everyone in front of us...while jumping up and down to stay warm and not tighten up.
You'd think with 12,000+ people registered, some with dogs and strollers, that they would have had us line up by time - you know with the fastest in the front and the slower folks in the back...but no such luck.
It probably took us a good two or three minutes to actually reach the start line... I said see ya later to my friends and off I went.
What a disaster! I weaved in and out of people for the first three miles. It was exhausting! There were a couple of abandoned cars in the road; at which point I followed a couple faster runners up onto the sidewalk. Then it was more weaving around walkers, joggers, strollers...all while watching for potholes in the road. I was ticked off! And even though I was ticked, I did say "sorry", "sorry", "sorry" every time I squeezed passed someone. It's just common courtesy~
Finally, a little past mile three, things cleared up and I was able to run somewhat without weaving. Around that time, there was this girl, younger than me, in pink, who was not running in a straight line. One of my pet peeves...straight line people! I eventually got around her and then it was like the two of us were racing. She would pass me, I would pass her, we would be running neck-in-neck...
About mile five, we had a slight hill to go up and off I zoom past her... Hee, hee, hee... Us runners do that. Find someone in front of us and pick them off... Oh that person up there...I'm gonna pass him/her! Then pick off another one. ;)
This girl in the pink, she was a good runner and I was thankful that we were "racing" each other. Made me go a bit faster!
Right before mile 6 we had to go through this tunnel...it was pretty cool. After we get out...who's next to me but the girl in the pink. Now we can see the finish line and we both pour it on. All I can think is...there is no way this young whipper snapper is gonna beat me. Zooooom! Ha! I beat her! ;P It's the little things like that which make a race fun...well, at least for me. If I would have seen her after I stopped, I would have told her - good run and thanks for the race! :) Alas, I didn't see her.
Now I am on the hunt for some water... Go inside Cobo...mass confusion. People everywhere... No water to be found. Finally, I spot this guy carrying a carton of water...ATTACK! I grab a water and down it... Still thirsty. Spot another guy...Attack (smaller attack, less thirsty!). The line for food was ridiculously long. I didn't even get a banana or a bagel or anything!
I was really disappointed because I was looking forward to my first 10k and the Turkey Trot itself. Very, very poorly organized. Unless they make changes and document them, I will not be doing the Detroit Turkey Trot again.
Although...even with all the weaving and my old shoes, I did make good time!
As of now, these are my results...
Distance 10K
Clock Time 54:01
Chip Time 51:47
Pace 8:10
Age Division Place 24 / 276
Split 31:45 (a little before mile 4)
Female Runner Place 253 / 3098
Next race....Jingle Bell 5K on December 5th!
Edited to add pics I found online! LOL!!!!
I'm the blurry girl in blue in the background...I must have been looking at the girl in pink thinking...Where the 'f' did she come from?! LOL!!!
Here's the chick in pink...my blue arm next to her! LOL!!!!
Got up at 5:45 a.m. to pouring rain and 43* F...and dreading the 10k run through Detroit... I wear my old running shoes because I don't want to get the newer ones soggy and pack three changes of clothes to take with me. I don't want to be waiting around or driving home in soggy clothes.
My girlfriend, C, picks me up shortly after 6 a.m. and we head into the D. (That would be the wonderful city of Detroit!) As we're driving, the closer we get to the D, the more it looks like it hasn't even rained! So I'm thinking I must have a storm cloud over my house! LOL!!!
We get downtown and I have a parking pass for Cobo Garage, so we wait in a long, long line of cars. It was worth it because we just had a short jaunt from the car to the inside of Cobo. We used the restroom and met up with my manager and his son. Just so happens my manager has a crush on C and was paging her to meet up!
We stretch a bit and chat and before we know it, it's time to head over toward the start line. We follow the masses of people.
We arrive to the start area, but are no where near the start line. I'm worried because I was wanting to make good time and there were thousands, literally, in front of us. So, they are chatting and all I can do is think about everyone in front of us...while jumping up and down to stay warm and not tighten up.
You'd think with 12,000+ people registered, some with dogs and strollers, that they would have had us line up by time - you know with the fastest in the front and the slower folks in the back...but no such luck.
It probably took us a good two or three minutes to actually reach the start line... I said see ya later to my friends and off I went.
What a disaster! I weaved in and out of people for the first three miles. It was exhausting! There were a couple of abandoned cars in the road; at which point I followed a couple faster runners up onto the sidewalk. Then it was more weaving around walkers, joggers, strollers...all while watching for potholes in the road. I was ticked off! And even though I was ticked, I did say "sorry", "sorry", "sorry" every time I squeezed passed someone. It's just common courtesy~
Finally, a little past mile three, things cleared up and I was able to run somewhat without weaving. Around that time, there was this girl, younger than me, in pink, who was not running in a straight line. One of my pet peeves...straight line people! I eventually got around her and then it was like the two of us were racing. She would pass me, I would pass her, we would be running neck-in-neck...
About mile five, we had a slight hill to go up and off I zoom past her... Hee, hee, hee... Us runners do that. Find someone in front of us and pick them off... Oh that person up there...I'm gonna pass him/her! Then pick off another one. ;)
This girl in the pink, she was a good runner and I was thankful that we were "racing" each other. Made me go a bit faster!
Right before mile 6 we had to go through this tunnel...it was pretty cool. After we get out...who's next to me but the girl in the pink. Now we can see the finish line and we both pour it on. All I can think is...there is no way this young whipper snapper is gonna beat me. Zooooom! Ha! I beat her! ;P It's the little things like that which make a race fun...well, at least for me. If I would have seen her after I stopped, I would have told her - good run and thanks for the race! :) Alas, I didn't see her.
Now I am on the hunt for some water... Go inside Cobo...mass confusion. People everywhere... No water to be found. Finally, I spot this guy carrying a carton of water...ATTACK! I grab a water and down it... Still thirsty. Spot another guy...Attack (smaller attack, less thirsty!). The line for food was ridiculously long. I didn't even get a banana or a bagel or anything!
I was really disappointed because I was looking forward to my first 10k and the Turkey Trot itself. Very, very poorly organized. Unless they make changes and document them, I will not be doing the Detroit Turkey Trot again.
Although...even with all the weaving and my old shoes, I did make good time!
As of now, these are my results...
Distance 10K
Clock Time 54:01
Chip Time 51:47
Pace 8:10
Age Division Place 24 / 276
Split 31:45 (a little before mile 4)
Female Runner Place 253 / 3098
Next race....Jingle Bell 5K on December 5th!
Edited to add pics I found online! LOL!!!!
I'm the blurry girl in blue in the background...I must have been looking at the girl in pink thinking...Where the 'f' did she come from?! LOL!!!
Here's the chick in pink...my blue arm next to her! LOL!!!!
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Coming Home
Thanksgiving is tomorrow...everyone is talking about what they are thankful for, posting what they are thankful for, tweeting what they are thankful for...
I am extremely thankful for my daughter. I am thankful for the fabulous, open relationship that I have with her. Thankful that she trusts me enough to talk to me about anything...and come to me with her problems...
My daughter will be 18 soon. She'll be graduating high school and moving on to college. It's a time when most kids leave home. For most parents, it's a time of letting go and letting their children be on their own.
Not for me! My daughter will be COMING HOME! Yup, you got that right! ::happy dance:: ::tears of joy:: Coming home...God, I love that phrase! :)
When she turns 18 she will be moving out of Jaba's house and in with me. I'm crossing my fingers that she doesn't get suckered into Jaba's evil web of lies... There's a whole lot more to the story...but I don't have time to get into the sickening details. It kills me that she has had to go through all of this. But I'm glad that she is seeing him for the evil shell of a person he truly is.
I'm just so very, very thankful for my daughter...my precious, precious gift...that will be soon coming home to me... (OMG, fingers crossed extremely tightly!!!!!!)
I am extremely thankful for my daughter. I am thankful for the fabulous, open relationship that I have with her. Thankful that she trusts me enough to talk to me about anything...and come to me with her problems...
My daughter will be 18 soon. She'll be graduating high school and moving on to college. It's a time when most kids leave home. For most parents, it's a time of letting go and letting their children be on their own.
Not for me! My daughter will be COMING HOME! Yup, you got that right! ::happy dance:: ::tears of joy:: Coming home...God, I love that phrase! :)
When she turns 18 she will be moving out of Jaba's house and in with me. I'm crossing my fingers that she doesn't get suckered into Jaba's evil web of lies... There's a whole lot more to the story...but I don't have time to get into the sickening details. It kills me that she has had to go through all of this. But I'm glad that she is seeing him for the evil shell of a person he truly is.
I'm just so very, very thankful for my daughter...my precious, precious gift...that will be soon coming home to me... (OMG, fingers crossed extremely tightly!!!!!!)
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Monday, November 23, 2009
Dreamland
OMG, it's been ridiculously busy at work. I was hoping to have some time to write a bit more about this past weekend...alas, not able to. Drats!
I did have the most bizarre dream last night. I dreamt I was pregnant and had a baby in the middle of a car/some neighborhood/somewhere... The baby was fine...a boy...Chris... But the umbilical cord wasn't getting cut and was hanging from me to the baby. No one would help me. I'm yanking the cord out (gross, I know), but they just couldn't be bothered. The baby wanted to feed and had a full set of adult teeth and was nipping at me. Never bit me...but was chomping for sure! I finally woke up when I saw a girlfriend (with a beard!) on a motorcycle with some guy. She couldn't be bothered either. Weird.
Well...7 a.m. meeting tomorrow...so I better head off to bed.
Wonder what dreamland will hold for me tonight!
I did have the most bizarre dream last night. I dreamt I was pregnant and had a baby in the middle of a car/some neighborhood/somewhere... The baby was fine...a boy...Chris... But the umbilical cord wasn't getting cut and was hanging from me to the baby. No one would help me. I'm yanking the cord out (gross, I know), but they just couldn't be bothered. The baby wanted to feed and had a full set of adult teeth and was nipping at me. Never bit me...but was chomping for sure! I finally woke up when I saw a girlfriend (with a beard!) on a motorcycle with some guy. She couldn't be bothered either. Weird.
Well...7 a.m. meeting tomorrow...so I better head off to bed.
Wonder what dreamland will hold for me tonight!
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Entry for the Day
This posting every day stuff...it's getting old!
I still have to get my thoughts down about yesterday's race...not to mention last night.
Today I got up and it was almost 11 a.m. when I rolled out of bed. Of course, I didn't sleep the whole time...but I was in bed late today! And no running...ugh!
I went shopping with my sis today and on the way home saw several runners. I felt guilty for not running and I desperately wanted to join them!
I had a great time with my sis...just hanging out and shopping. I couldn't have asked for a better sis! I love her dearly. We're best friends and always tell each other like it is...a quality I highly value in all of my friends.
Not to much else going on. It's gonna be a short work week due to Gobbler Day. I was thinking about that today. What a completely bogus holiday. Celebrate the Pilgrims and the Indians coming together and then the Pilgrims eventually obliterate the Indians....and we celebrate anyway??? I don't get it.
Any who...
That's my entry for the day. :)
I still have to get my thoughts down about yesterday's race...not to mention last night.
Today I got up and it was almost 11 a.m. when I rolled out of bed. Of course, I didn't sleep the whole time...but I was in bed late today! And no running...ugh!
I went shopping with my sis today and on the way home saw several runners. I felt guilty for not running and I desperately wanted to join them!
I had a great time with my sis...just hanging out and shopping. I couldn't have asked for a better sis! I love her dearly. We're best friends and always tell each other like it is...a quality I highly value in all of my friends.
Not to much else going on. It's gonna be a short work week due to Gobbler Day. I was thinking about that today. What a completely bogus holiday. Celebrate the Pilgrims and the Indians coming together and then the Pilgrims eventually obliterate the Indians....and we celebrate anyway??? I don't get it.
Any who...
That's my entry for the day. :)
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Blitzen the Dotte 5K
Blitzen the Dotte 5K
0:24:00 overall
7:75/m pace
2nd in my age group
92nd out of 442 overall
More later...
0:24:00 overall
7:75/m pace
2nd in my age group
92nd out of 442 overall
More later...
Friday, November 20, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Dork.
That's me. A dork.
My facebook status: "If I'm a cougar....where are all my cubs???"
I know...completely lame! But, hey, I'm having fun and what's the harm?
Plus....I'm going to LA!!!!! Ticket is purchase and I can't wait! WoooHoo!!!! Only 56 more days... ;P Which gives me lots of time to heal and not be such a man hater!
Ran five miles today. Have a 5K on Saturday.
Going out Saturday night to listen to a band that I like.
Talked with my good friend in GA tonight for a while tonight.
Guess things are looking up and I am in a fabulous mood!!!!
...even if I am a dork! LOL!!!!
My facebook status: "If I'm a cougar....where are all my cubs???"
I know...completely lame! But, hey, I'm having fun and what's the harm?
Plus....I'm going to LA!!!!! Ticket is purchase and I can't wait! WoooHoo!!!! Only 56 more days... ;P Which gives me lots of time to heal and not be such a man hater!
Ran five miles today. Have a 5K on Saturday.
Going out Saturday night to listen to a band that I like.
Talked with my good friend in GA tonight for a while tonight.
Guess things are looking up and I am in a fabulous mood!!!!
...even if I am a dork! LOL!!!!
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Drip, Drip, Drip
OMG, I'm going to go crazy!
Paul was supposed to fix my gutters for me...months ago!
Here it is raining...and all I can hear is Drip. Drip. Drip, drip, drip. Drip. Drip, drip...
WTF????
I'm going to pull my freaking hair out!
What a DRIP!
Paul was supposed to fix my gutters for me...months ago!
Here it is raining...and all I can hear is Drip. Drip. Drip, drip, drip. Drip. Drip, drip...
WTF????
I'm going to pull my freaking hair out!
What a DRIP!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
2009 Lightfest 8K
Ran a fun run/walk tonight in the dark... It was very cool, since the road we ran/walked down was all lit up with these huge holiday light displays.
I went alone and ran alone and road home alone...
When I was running I thought to myself that it would be really romantic to be running down the road with someone special. (Okay, now I know I'm sick because I can relate running to romance! LOL!!!!!)
At the beginning of the run I took my time, looked at the lights and ran past all the couples, families and other folks walking together. I loved the lights. But it made me a bit melancholy that I was out there in such beauty running by myself...no one to share my thoughts with...no one to look over at and smile...
Probably about two/two and a half miles in some runners started passing me. Mostly men. (Ha!) So I picked up the pace a bit. More and more youngin's were passing me in spurts of two, three, four. Eventually, I tuned the sites out and just ran. I was tired of feeling alone, so I got caught up in the "fun" of the "run".
I think it took me about 45 minutes to finish. The timer said 38 minutes, but I started at least 3 minutes prior to the actual start.
I meandered over to the shelter where the food was being passed out. I got my water and a bagel and headed towards the bus. I sat on the bus alone. No one really said anything...everyone else was there with someone...whether it was a friend, someone special, a group... But I just sat there and looked out the window as the bus took us back to the start.
I am glad I went.
I ran and it was fun and it was really pretty.
But I'm a little sad about it, too...being there alone and not really sharing it with anyone.
So that's it...2009 Lightfest....
Oh, I forgot to mention, I got a glow stick and ran with it wrapped around my ankle! LOL!!! ;P It's the little things! :)
I went alone and ran alone and road home alone...
When I was running I thought to myself that it would be really romantic to be running down the road with someone special. (Okay, now I know I'm sick because I can relate running to romance! LOL!!!!!)
At the beginning of the run I took my time, looked at the lights and ran past all the couples, families and other folks walking together. I loved the lights. But it made me a bit melancholy that I was out there in such beauty running by myself...no one to share my thoughts with...no one to look over at and smile...
Probably about two/two and a half miles in some runners started passing me. Mostly men. (Ha!) So I picked up the pace a bit. More and more youngin's were passing me in spurts of two, three, four. Eventually, I tuned the sites out and just ran. I was tired of feeling alone, so I got caught up in the "fun" of the "run".
I think it took me about 45 minutes to finish. The timer said 38 minutes, but I started at least 3 minutes prior to the actual start.
I meandered over to the shelter where the food was being passed out. I got my water and a bagel and headed towards the bus. I sat on the bus alone. No one really said anything...everyone else was there with someone...whether it was a friend, someone special, a group... But I just sat there and looked out the window as the bus took us back to the start.
I am glad I went.
I ran and it was fun and it was really pretty.
But I'm a little sad about it, too...being there alone and not really sharing it with anyone.
So that's it...2009 Lightfest....
Oh, I forgot to mention, I got a glow stick and ran with it wrapped around my ankle! LOL!!! ;P It's the little things! :)
Monday, November 16, 2009
LA Bound
Oh yeah baby....
Gotta check schedules and budget...but I'm outta here and flying off soon!
Gotta check schedules and budget...but I'm outta here and flying off soon!
Sunday, November 15, 2009
What to do...
Yes, what to do, what to do...
I have a list of things a mile and a half long that I could be doing...but I don't want to do any of them. Don't want to fold clothes, don't want to paint trim, don't want to clean the floors, don't want to flip mattresses, don't want to go pick up poop from the yard... Don't want to do any of that "fun" stuff!
So what will I do today?
Hmmm... I could go running... Maybe. Went for a 8.67 mile run yesterday. Met a cyclist named Chris. Seems Chris sees me running every weekend, so he thought he would say hello. We chatted while he biked and I ran for at least a mile or so then I ran out of steam and actually had to stop. We parted ways and who knows...I'm sure I'll see him again next time I run on the weekend down the road...
Or I could go to the gym... Haven't been to the gym in ages. But don't really feel like cross training just yet. I have a couple more races and don't want to get all tightened up. I suppose I could go and jump rope...but that's only about 30 minutes or so...then what? ::sigh::
Obviously, it seems I'm trying to avoid contact with men. I just don't want to get sucked in and I don't feel like dealing with the relationship games...
Maybe I'll take the dogs for a walk around the hood.
...then I'll figure out the next thing to do...
I have a list of things a mile and a half long that I could be doing...but I don't want to do any of them. Don't want to fold clothes, don't want to paint trim, don't want to clean the floors, don't want to flip mattresses, don't want to go pick up poop from the yard... Don't want to do any of that "fun" stuff!
So what will I do today?
Hmmm... I could go running... Maybe. Went for a 8.67 mile run yesterday. Met a cyclist named Chris. Seems Chris sees me running every weekend, so he thought he would say hello. We chatted while he biked and I ran for at least a mile or so then I ran out of steam and actually had to stop. We parted ways and who knows...I'm sure I'll see him again next time I run on the weekend down the road...
Or I could go to the gym... Haven't been to the gym in ages. But don't really feel like cross training just yet. I have a couple more races and don't want to get all tightened up. I suppose I could go and jump rope...but that's only about 30 minutes or so...then what? ::sigh::
Obviously, it seems I'm trying to avoid contact with men. I just don't want to get sucked in and I don't feel like dealing with the relationship games...
Maybe I'll take the dogs for a walk around the hood.
...then I'll figure out the next thing to do...
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Why...
Why is it that the person we want to forget about is on our minds the most?
I feel immensely lonely...
But I have to say that even if he wanted me back and was willing to give me the world...I don't think I have anything left to give.
I just don't understand why things have to be the way they are.
Or why things play out the way they do.
I don't understand alot of things...and am left wondering why...
I feel immensely lonely...
But I have to say that even if he wanted me back and was willing to give me the world...I don't think I have anything left to give.
I just don't understand why things have to be the way they are.
Or why things play out the way they do.
I don't understand alot of things...and am left wondering why...
Friday, November 13, 2009
Almost Forgot!
Yupper, almost forgot to post today...was getting ready for bed and remembered!
Going to get up in the a.m. and go for a 7 - 10 mile run... Just a quick jaunt! ;)
Tomorrow night...out with the girls! :)
Trying to keep myself busy so I don't think about ... you know who...
Looks like I almost forgot about a lot of things...
Going to get up in the a.m. and go for a 7 - 10 mile run... Just a quick jaunt! ;)
Tomorrow night...out with the girls! :)
Trying to keep myself busy so I don't think about ... you know who...
Looks like I almost forgot about a lot of things...
Thursday, November 12, 2009
12 Days of Christmas...running style!
I love this!
On the 12th day of Christmas, my running buddy gave to me:
12 packs of energy gel
11 hand-warming gloves
10 race entries
9 inspiring cards
8 pairs of socks
7 nutritional supplements
6 massage sessions (consult your local sports-massage therapists)
5 golden medals (these can't be bought of course, but motivation and support will help)
4 books on running
3 pairs of running shoes
2 coaching videos
... and a trip to a far-away marathon
On the 12th day of Christmas, my running buddy gave to me:
12 packs of energy gel
11 hand-warming gloves
10 race entries
9 inspiring cards
8 pairs of socks
7 nutritional supplements
6 massage sessions (consult your local sports-massage therapists)
5 golden medals (these can't be bought of course, but motivation and support will help)
4 books on running
3 pairs of running shoes
2 coaching videos
... and a trip to a far-away marathon
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Mean Spirited Driver
I was out running around my neighborhood this evening and some woman ran a stop sign and almost ran right into me. I was wearing this extremely reflective vest that would blind anyone! In fact, my daughter's boyfriend was over tonight when I got home and couldn't believe I actually wear it. Anyway, I waved my arms in the air and was like "WTF" and kept running down the sidewalk, not really thinking anything of it other than she was clueless.
She must have turned around and followed me three blocks down the road because she almost ran into me AGAIN when I was crossing another street. To add fuel to the fire, she had her window down and was telling me off...all with her young daughter in the car...then she tried hitting me with her car... It was the first time I've ever had to pound on anyone's hood... I couldn't believe it...and yelled at her that it wasn't my fault and that if she would have stopped at the stop sign, there wouldn't be an issue. There were other cars stopped at the second street stop sign and I think she finally figured out that she was in the wrong because she sped away...
Unreal...
I was truly scared for the rest of my run and kept wondering if she was still following me. :(
I may have to start carrying my cell phone...if I had it, I would have called the police on the spot. I've never been scared like that before. I felt completely cornered because she cut me off with her car. Flesh vs. metal...don't have to tell me who would win.
Some people are just down right mean spirited!
She must have turned around and followed me three blocks down the road because she almost ran into me AGAIN when I was crossing another street. To add fuel to the fire, she had her window down and was telling me off...all with her young daughter in the car...then she tried hitting me with her car... It was the first time I've ever had to pound on anyone's hood... I couldn't believe it...and yelled at her that it wasn't my fault and that if she would have stopped at the stop sign, there wouldn't be an issue. There were other cars stopped at the second street stop sign and I think she finally figured out that she was in the wrong because she sped away...
Unreal...
I was truly scared for the rest of my run and kept wondering if she was still following me. :(
I may have to start carrying my cell phone...if I had it, I would have called the police on the spot. I've never been scared like that before. I felt completely cornered because she cut me off with her car. Flesh vs. metal...don't have to tell me who would win.
Some people are just down right mean spirited!
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Upcoming Race
Oh boy...next Saturday is my first race since the Marathon...and my first race since August.
I'm a little nervous. What if I don't do well? What if I don't place? What if I run like a slug? What if it's snowy and super cold?
I've got all these expectations... (Again, the expectations!) Seems sometimes I let the expectations get the best of me and my relationships. But in my relationships...I deserve the BEST! :) As for my running...I'm just nervous. I've been doing so well...and I don't want to let myself down.
The upcoming race is a 5K, so I'm shooting for no more than 0:26:00 overall which is an 8:22/m pace. Today I ran at an 8:52/m pace for 3.72 miles, not out of breath and not sweaty at the end...I'm sure I can knock 30 seconds off of that pace...
Blah, blah, blah...
...one of these days I'll post something joyful. Argh!
I'm a little nervous. What if I don't do well? What if I don't place? What if I run like a slug? What if it's snowy and super cold?
I've got all these expectations... (Again, the expectations!) Seems sometimes I let the expectations get the best of me and my relationships. But in my relationships...I deserve the BEST! :) As for my running...I'm just nervous. I've been doing so well...and I don't want to let myself down.
The upcoming race is a 5K, so I'm shooting for no more than 0:26:00 overall which is an 8:22/m pace. Today I ran at an 8:52/m pace for 3.72 miles, not out of breath and not sweaty at the end...I'm sure I can knock 30 seconds off of that pace...
Blah, blah, blah...
...one of these days I'll post something joyful. Argh!
Monday, November 9, 2009
5 Stages
5 Stages of Grief...
1. Denial - all gone, I'm no longer there. I've realize it's not meant to be. :(
2. Anger - oh yeah...every now and then. :
3. Bargaining - Yup did that already...back and forth, back and forth like a yo-yo. It didn't work. :(
4. Depression - I'd have to say that I have a little bit of that. :(
5. Acceptance - Trying to be there, but fighting it...which is probably why I'm angry and depressed! :~
Just wish I could blink and be through them all...or just RUN through them all!
1. Denial - all gone, I'm no longer there. I've realize it's not meant to be. :(
2. Anger - oh yeah...every now and then. :
3. Bargaining - Yup did that already...back and forth, back and forth like a yo-yo. It didn't work. :(
4. Depression - I'd have to say that I have a little bit of that. :(
5. Acceptance - Trying to be there, but fighting it...which is probably why I'm angry and depressed! :~
Just wish I could blink and be through them all...or just RUN through them all!
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Running Away...
It seems the evenings are the worst...I'm left alone with my thoughts...
::sigh::
Ran five miles with my girlfriend this afternoon. It was another lovely afternoon - sun shining, light breeze, 68* F... A wonderful fall afternoon.
I could have ran forever...
...sometimes I just want to run and not stop running...maybe then everything will be okay.
Puts a new spin on the definition of running away, huh?
::sigh::
Ran five miles with my girlfriend this afternoon. It was another lovely afternoon - sun shining, light breeze, 68* F... A wonderful fall afternoon.
I could have ran forever...
...sometimes I just want to run and not stop running...maybe then everything will be okay.
Puts a new spin on the definition of running away, huh?
Saturday, November 7, 2009
New Beginnings
Still a few hours left in the day...not sure what to say about it so far...
Slept in this morning and then got up and goofed off for a while. After that, drove over to Hines and ran ~7 miles. It was my first longish run since the marathon. I mindlessly ran down the road...just me alone with my thoughts. Dangerous, huh? LOL!
Going to be getting ready to meet a friend up at BWW's... I need to get out of the house more often and have some fun. Bad thing is....no $$$! Can't wait for child support payments to come to and end. Only eight more months! WooHoo!!!!!!
Hmmmm...
I figured out that the path I run down is really .27 miles longer than it says it is on the sign. Ha! I wonder how much that would increase my time down the path... I'll have to check my spreadsheet on Monday since it's on my work laptop and the laptop is..at work. I knew that path was over 4 miles! LOL!!! Can you say OCD????
Well, I should take a shower and get ready. Never know who you may meet or run into when one is out! ;P
According to my horoscope today: "If you keep a hopeful attitude and stay focused on the positive, you should start to sense a new beginning coming soon." I sure hope so! :)
Here's to new beginnings!!!
Slept in this morning and then got up and goofed off for a while. After that, drove over to Hines and ran ~7 miles. It was my first longish run since the marathon. I mindlessly ran down the road...just me alone with my thoughts. Dangerous, huh? LOL!
Going to be getting ready to meet a friend up at BWW's... I need to get out of the house more often and have some fun. Bad thing is....no $$$! Can't wait for child support payments to come to and end. Only eight more months! WooHoo!!!!!!
Hmmmm...
I figured out that the path I run down is really .27 miles longer than it says it is on the sign. Ha! I wonder how much that would increase my time down the path... I'll have to check my spreadsheet on Monday since it's on my work laptop and the laptop is..at work. I knew that path was over 4 miles! LOL!!! Can you say OCD????
Well, I should take a shower and get ready. Never know who you may meet or run into when one is out! ;P
According to my horoscope today: "If you keep a hopeful attitude and stay focused on the positive, you should start to sense a new beginning coming soon." I sure hope so! :)
Here's to new beginnings!!!
Friday, November 6, 2009
Breaking
I'm sitting here on a Friday night...alone...and sad.
I don't want to be alone and my heart is breaking over and over again. Tears keep streaming down my face like an endless river going no where. Then the tears stop and I'm okay for a while. But then it starts back up again.
I don't like feeling like this. I don't like feeling sad and lonely and vunerable.
I want to call him...because I don't want to be alone...
But I won't...because I don't want to fall back into the same self destructing pattern.
For now, I'll just be alone and let my heart feel like it's breaking.
Added about an hour later: boy, I feel better...guess I just needed to get the bad stuff out...
Nevermind...breaking again... Bah! LOL!
Well, at least I can laugh about my yo-yo-ish breaking heart... Not really. :(
I don't want to be alone and my heart is breaking over and over again. Tears keep streaming down my face like an endless river going no where. Then the tears stop and I'm okay for a while. But then it starts back up again.
I don't like feeling like this. I don't like feeling sad and lonely and vunerable.
I want to call him...because I don't want to be alone...
But I won't...because I don't want to fall back into the same self destructing pattern.
For now, I'll just be alone and let my heart feel like it's breaking.
Added about an hour later: boy, I feel better...guess I just needed to get the bad stuff out...
Nevermind...breaking again... Bah! LOL!
Well, at least I can laugh about my yo-yo-ish breaking heart... Not really. :(
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Quickie!
Work, run, daughter...
Had a really nice evening tonight...first time in a long time my daughter and I hung out together!!!!! :) :) :)
I miss her!
Had a really nice evening tonight...first time in a long time my daughter and I hung out together!!!!! :) :) :)
I miss her!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Train Wreck
What a shit ass day.
I woke up in the middle of the night with a crying headache - took two aspirins and went back to bed. I suppose the extra glass of wine I had before I went to bed didn't help my aching head either. No need to get into details about the crying or the extra wine...let's just say I talked to a certain someone and all the tears that were pent up from the last couple weeks came pouring out.
So this morning I get up, feed the dogs and get ready to take a shower. I look in the mirror...it was like I had been hit by a train. Bags under my eyes, eyes all puffy, hair flying all over the place, make-up under the eyes... Scary.
I get into the office and the fun begins. Meetings, meetings and mo meetings. Two hot assignments due and I was freaking out because both weren't getting the attention they needed. I actually put some extra time in the office to get one of the assignments completed...phew! But the other assignment is still open and still has tons of holes in it...holes big enough for a train to drive through!
No running tonight...evening number two of no running. I was exhausted and didn't really have any motivation to run. Thank you Post Marathon Depression! Plus, I had a date with C. Sauvignon!!!! I think I am falling in love with C. Sauvignon...great body, puts me in a mellow mood every time we meet, wonderful aroma, comes from many cultures and is well traveled, sometimes surprising...oh, the list goes on... LOL!!! Sorry, couldn't help it...my warped sense of humor strikes again! ;P
I promise myself I'll run tomorrow. At least four miles...
Any who.
When I got home, someone had put my garbage cans in my backyard... Weird. Who would do that? And who would know which one to leave out so I could put it in the garage? Very Weird.
Dogs kept wanting out and then were barking two minutes later to come back in. Make up your minds already. They are now getting on each others nerves and are barking at each other as I type this.
My daughter got home, sits on the couch and starts crying. The Big A, which is what I call her boyfriend, text her that he just wants to be friends... Great... Of course, I'm the greatest role model when it comes to relationships...ugh! I felt bad for her and we started talking. Then he called and off she went to her room and hasn't been out since. I can still hear her on the phone from where I am sitting.
It's been one thing after another today...
I just feel like my day has been a complete train wreck.
I woke up in the middle of the night with a crying headache - took two aspirins and went back to bed. I suppose the extra glass of wine I had before I went to bed didn't help my aching head either. No need to get into details about the crying or the extra wine...let's just say I talked to a certain someone and all the tears that were pent up from the last couple weeks came pouring out.
So this morning I get up, feed the dogs and get ready to take a shower. I look in the mirror...it was like I had been hit by a train. Bags under my eyes, eyes all puffy, hair flying all over the place, make-up under the eyes... Scary.
I get into the office and the fun begins. Meetings, meetings and mo meetings. Two hot assignments due and I was freaking out because both weren't getting the attention they needed. I actually put some extra time in the office to get one of the assignments completed...phew! But the other assignment is still open and still has tons of holes in it...holes big enough for a train to drive through!
No running tonight...evening number two of no running. I was exhausted and didn't really have any motivation to run. Thank you Post Marathon Depression! Plus, I had a date with C. Sauvignon!!!! I think I am falling in love with C. Sauvignon...great body, puts me in a mellow mood every time we meet, wonderful aroma, comes from many cultures and is well traveled, sometimes surprising...oh, the list goes on... LOL!!! Sorry, couldn't help it...my warped sense of humor strikes again! ;P
I promise myself I'll run tomorrow. At least four miles...
Any who.
When I got home, someone had put my garbage cans in my backyard... Weird. Who would do that? And who would know which one to leave out so I could put it in the garage? Very Weird.
Dogs kept wanting out and then were barking two minutes later to come back in. Make up your minds already. They are now getting on each others nerves and are barking at each other as I type this.
My daughter got home, sits on the couch and starts crying. The Big A, which is what I call her boyfriend, text her that he just wants to be friends... Great... Of course, I'm the greatest role model when it comes to relationships...ugh! I felt bad for her and we started talking. Then he called and off she went to her room and hasn't been out since. I can still hear her on the phone from where I am sitting.
It's been one thing after another today...
I just feel like my day has been a complete train wreck.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
1 - 33
1. What is your occupation right now? Program Management Analyst...aka Adult Babysitter
2. What color are your socks right now? Brown
3. What are you listening to right now? My typing on the keyboard.
4. What was the last thing that you ate? Pretzels and chili con queso dip...I know, I know!
5. Can you drive a stick shift? Yuppers!
6. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Referral Coordinator at my Dr.
7. Do you like the person who sent this to you ? n/a...snagged from a friend's blog!
8. How old are you today? 42+++ and dang proud of it!!!!
9. What is your favorite sport to watch on TV? Ice Hockey
10. What is your favorite drink? Ravenswood Zin - red of course!
11. Have you ever dyed your hair? The folks I worked with years ago said I was like Baskin Robins...31 Hair Colors!
12. Favorite food? mexican~
13. What is the last movie you watched? Made of Honor
14. Favorite day of the year? Any day I don't have to work!
15. How do you vent anger? I let it all out and deal with the repercussions later.
16. What was your favorite toy as a child? Simon.
17. What is your favorite season? Spring
18. Cherries or Blueberries? Blueberries...YUM!
19. Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? n/a
20. Who is the most likely to respond? Not asking anyone to respond per se.
21. Who is least likely to respond? See above.
22. Where do you live? Michigan...between Ann Arbor and Detroit
23. When was the last time you cried? Maybe yesterday
25. Who is the friend you had the longest that you are sending this to? N/A since I am not sending this.
26. What did you do last night? Ran, ate, watched tv, surfed the web.
27. What are you most afraid of? growing old alone.
28. Plain, cheese, or spicy hamburgers? YUK~ No beef for me!
29. Favorite breed of dog? Urrr...Ummm... Okay, Siberian Huskies!
30. Favorite day of the week? Saturday
31. How many states have you lived in? One.
32. Diamonds or pearls? Diamond, my birthstone!
33 . What is your favorite flower? Lavender or Lilacs...
2. What color are your socks right now? Brown
3. What are you listening to right now? My typing on the keyboard.
4. What was the last thing that you ate? Pretzels and chili con queso dip...I know, I know!
5. Can you drive a stick shift? Yuppers!
6. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Referral Coordinator at my Dr.
7. Do you like the person who sent this to you ? n/a...snagged from a friend's blog!
8. How old are you today? 42+++ and dang proud of it!!!!
9. What is your favorite sport to watch on TV? Ice Hockey
10. What is your favorite drink? Ravenswood Zin - red of course!
11. Have you ever dyed your hair? The folks I worked with years ago said I was like Baskin Robins...31 Hair Colors!
12. Favorite food? mexican~
13. What is the last movie you watched? Made of Honor
14. Favorite day of the year? Any day I don't have to work!
15. How do you vent anger? I let it all out and deal with the repercussions later.
16. What was your favorite toy as a child? Simon.
17. What is your favorite season? Spring
18. Cherries or Blueberries? Blueberries...YUM!
19. Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? n/a
20. Who is the most likely to respond? Not asking anyone to respond per se.
21. Who is least likely to respond? See above.
22. Where do you live? Michigan...between Ann Arbor and Detroit
23. When was the last time you cried? Maybe yesterday
25. Who is the friend you had the longest that you are sending this to? N/A since I am not sending this.
26. What did you do last night? Ran, ate, watched tv, surfed the web.
27. What are you most afraid of? growing old alone.
28. Plain, cheese, or spicy hamburgers? YUK~ No beef for me!
29. Favorite breed of dog? Urrr...Ummm... Okay, Siberian Huskies!
30. Favorite day of the week? Saturday
31. How many states have you lived in? One.
32. Diamonds or pearls? Diamond, my birthstone!
33 . What is your favorite flower? Lavender or Lilacs...
Monday, November 2, 2009
Day 2
Today is day two of National Bloggers Posting Month. I signed up to post one entry every day for a month. See the little badge on the side of my page??? So this means you're stuck reading my gibberish every freakin' day this month! Bwahahahaha!
Not really sure what I want to write about today as I sit here with a heating pad on my shoulder/neck.
For the last week or so I've been looking for a black suit type jacket that I bought while in Germany a couple years ago. I loved that jacket...it was great to wear with jeans over a cami...
Yes, I said "loved". Today I found out that my ex-boyfriend's daughter hacked the jacket into some freakin' Michael Jackson pedophile wanna be jacket! Unfreakin' real!!!!!
I will never find a jacket like that one again! Not only was it "cool". But it was "Euro Sue" cool! And it was lined and only $9 EU!
My Euro jacket was massacred and turned into a pedophile tragedy!
Sorry to all the MJ lovers out there...but personal opinion...
Any who...
Ran three miles this evening. Even with my lime green fluorescent safety vest folks still seemed oblivious. It's amazing how many people just blow passed stop signs and barely yield.
Heck, I almost got hit by a church goer this weekend. The old lady turned left onto a side street I was running passed and almost hit me. Like withing 5 ft! I was running against on-coming traffic (which runners are supposed to do to be safe) and on the sidewalk and wearing a bright blue shirt...HELLO! She came up behind me from out of no where and actually had the balls to glare at me before slamming on the brakes and then scooting forward again! I called her a "c" under my breath as I ran up onto the sidewalk. WTF?
I have this theory that people are idiots. And it was proven once again!
Ah well...it's getting to be about that time and my eyelids are getting heavy.
Catch ya again tomorrow!
Not really sure what I want to write about today as I sit here with a heating pad on my shoulder/neck.
For the last week or so I've been looking for a black suit type jacket that I bought while in Germany a couple years ago. I loved that jacket...it was great to wear with jeans over a cami...
Yes, I said "loved". Today I found out that my ex-boyfriend's daughter hacked the jacket into some freakin' Michael Jackson pedophile wanna be jacket! Unfreakin' real!!!!!
I will never find a jacket like that one again! Not only was it "cool". But it was "Euro Sue" cool! And it was lined and only $9 EU!
My Euro jacket was massacred and turned into a pedophile tragedy!
Sorry to all the MJ lovers out there...but personal opinion...
Any who...
Ran three miles this evening. Even with my lime green fluorescent safety vest folks still seemed oblivious. It's amazing how many people just blow passed stop signs and barely yield.
Heck, I almost got hit by a church goer this weekend. The old lady turned left onto a side street I was running passed and almost hit me. Like withing 5 ft! I was running against on-coming traffic (which runners are supposed to do to be safe) and on the sidewalk and wearing a bright blue shirt...HELLO! She came up behind me from out of no where and actually had the balls to glare at me before slamming on the brakes and then scooting forward again! I called her a "c" under my breath as I ran up onto the sidewalk. WTF?
I have this theory that people are idiots. And it was proven once again!
Ah well...it's getting to be about that time and my eyelids are getting heavy.
Catch ya again tomorrow!
Sunday, November 1, 2009
PMD
Seems I'm not so crazy after all and there is such a thing as Post Marathon Depresssion aka PMD! Ha! Ha! and Ha! Okay, okay, so most of the articles say the same thing...but it explains a lot to me.
I did it. I ran 26.2 miles. I accomplished something I didn't think I could do. Now What? That's what the articles say and that's exactly what I've been thinking. Now what?
I suppose the final break-up of Paul and I isn't helping my mood or my motivation. I really do not like being single. I know it hasn't been that long...but I miss sharing my life, my day, my "everything" with someone. Don't get me wrong, I love my "me" time...but all the time??? Guess I'm feeling a bit lonely...
It also explains me peetering out at about 2 miles during my runs. I'm just wiped out! Granted most of my runs have been 3 - 5 miles and most at an under 9 minute mile pace, but OMG, I feel like I'm just exhausted when I'm done.
So, from what the articles say, I should have another two and a half weeks of feeling like this. Which I, suppose, is why my post marathon training schedule is set up the way it is.
Ah ha! Things are making sense now...
Guess I just have to be patient and let the PMD run it's course (ha, no pun intended!)...
I did it. I ran 26.2 miles. I accomplished something I didn't think I could do. Now What? That's what the articles say and that's exactly what I've been thinking. Now what?
I suppose the final break-up of Paul and I isn't helping my mood or my motivation. I really do not like being single. I know it hasn't been that long...but I miss sharing my life, my day, my "everything" with someone. Don't get me wrong, I love my "me" time...but all the time??? Guess I'm feeling a bit lonely...
It also explains me peetering out at about 2 miles during my runs. I'm just wiped out! Granted most of my runs have been 3 - 5 miles and most at an under 9 minute mile pace, but OMG, I feel like I'm just exhausted when I'm done.
So, from what the articles say, I should have another two and a half weeks of feeling like this. Which I, suppose, is why my post marathon training schedule is set up the way it is.
Ah ha! Things are making sense now...
Guess I just have to be patient and let the PMD run it's course (ha, no pun intended!)...
Motivation Please!
Seems I'm not too motivated for running these days. The marathon is done and every run I've had since has seemed slow and torturous. I'm not sure what has gotten into me. I have to force myself to go out and run...ugh!
I've heard there is a post marathon depression. I think I'm in it.
My next race is 21Nov, then on Turkey Day...then maybe the Martian Marathon (or half marathon depending on how winter training goes) in April 2010.
All I know is that....I need some running motivation....pa-lease!
I've heard there is a post marathon depression. I think I'm in it.
My next race is 21Nov, then on Turkey Day...then maybe the Martian Marathon (or half marathon depending on how winter training goes) in April 2010.
All I know is that....I need some running motivation....pa-lease!
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