More about Gigi!

If I were to send Paul an email about my "Gigi Moment", it would go something like this... (I will most likely wait to talk to him about it though - email just isn't the way to go with something like this!)

Preface: Gigi is the spazed out chic from "he's just not that into you".

The impromptu talk last night was a good one. I'm almost hesitant to say anything for a couple reasons. First, because I don't want to come across as having a "Gigi Moment". Second, because just everything you said to me about us/me was all positive and good…and made me smile. :)

I do hope that I was able to ease your mind about how I feel about both my and your interaction with your ex. Like I said last night, I do not feel threatened by her and I'm still getting to know her…so no issues on my part. So if I'm quiet when she's around, it's not because of any negative feelings, it's just me internalizing things and trying to figure out how to respond/communicate…all new to me!

I guess the only thing that has made me stop and think is the topic of marriage which you brought up. Like I said, I'm almost hesitant to say anything because I don't want to come across as having a "Gigi Moment" analyzing and over analyzing things…but well, maybe I am. And I suppose it's bothering me because you mentioned that you do want to get married again, just not now because of your youngest daughter - which I can completely understand. Anyway...Ever since my last divorce I've told myself that I didn't want to get married again…that I would be content just being with someone in a committed relationship and pretty much said as much to you last night. Which completely contradicted what I said about my therapy appt a couple weeks ago…that who knows, in five years I could be married with a new last name. But when you asked how I felt about it, I froze and the walls came up. I guess I didn't want to admit to myself or anyone else for that matter, that I could see myself getting married and that I actually do want to someday...and perhaps these thoughts are a result of meeting you.

Phew! I said it. It wasn't that hard after all. And what's that I hear? Chip, chip, crackle, crackle, crackle... Look the wall is comin' on down... LOL!

Any who...It was bothering me and I have promised myself that if something is bothering me that I am going to communicate it…one way or another. ;)