Silencing Yesterday

There are some days when I just feel like there is no going forward...that all I can do is look back.

You know...those days and moments when you look through old photos and remember things gone by, remember the good times you had...

Those times when the past lures you into believing that what ever it was was absolute perfection or really close to it.  

I'm guessing we've all had those thoughts at one point or another.  

Those times when you think your life will never be that good, never be the same, ever, ever again.  

Those times when the chatter in your head tells you that nothing will ever be as good as the time when...

But then you are snapped back to reality. 

Reality.  Yes, the here and now.  Today.  This moment. 

Not the past.  Not some time before.  

Today.  Right now.

It's so easy to look back and remember the good.  But there is a reason that the past is the past and there is a reason that there are people who are no longer in our lives.

I keep telling myself that there must be something really good coming along.  That there is something waiting for me around the next corner.

What other reason would the enemy keep tempting me to go backwards?  The only reason I can think of is that there is something pretty freakin' awesome around the next bend.

It's faith.  It's perseverance.  It's knowing without knowing.  Knowing and trusting.  Trusting without proof.

I just know that God would not lead me to where I'm at only to take me back into the life I had before.  But do I really know?  There are times when I don't know and actually start doubting.  Oh, how I hate to even admit that I start doubting.

But then I sort of slap myself in the face.  (not literally though)  I slap myself and tell myself that I must only trust.  That I must pray.  That I must turn to our one true God.  I must pray and I must ask God to show me the way.  I must ask Him to show me the way out of the blah I am in.  

I know that God has defeated the enemy with Jesus' broken body and blood.  And this is the knowledge which gives me the courage and strength to tell the enemy that he is not welcome here.  I tell the enemy that he can get the heck out of here and never come back...because I have the one true God on my side.  And with God on my side...I cannot be defeated!!!

Looking back does no good.  It does nothing good. 

Looking back stirs the chatterbox.  It stirs him and awakens him.  

I truly know in my heart that I have the greatest weapon which will render the advances of the chatterbox useless...God's word.  

It's through the power of the Holy Spirit and God's word that I will silence and defeat the chatterbox.