If I can't run....

If I can't run, I'll....

Do some laundry

Vacuum for the umteenth time

Work on the reunion for three or four hours this morning - post pics on facebook and then tag approximately 300 pictures, update contacts list, make some phone calls

Drive with my daughter over to her boyfriend's (she drove - and is getting better!)

Bake - 11 ginormous cookies (5 - 6" across!) and two pans of milk chocolate butterscotch cookie bars (going to be seeing some family and friends...gotta have treats to give away!)

Cook dinner - rice, veggie and chicken bake

Drink some red wine!

Lots of things to do besides run! ;)

BQ

Ohhhhhh to BQ. (That would be Boston Qualify.)

To be able to run the Boston Marathon, one has to qualify for it. My age range qualifying time is 3:50:59...which would equate to a 8:46m/pace. Which means I'd have to cut 18 minutes off of my time based on my first marathon.

I have been running faster with the cooler weather on my training runs. And I've been PRing (setting personal records) at the last two 5k races I've ran. I mean, at my last 5k race at the beginning December, I ran close to 50 seconds faster per minute than I did back in July...and 40 seconds faster per minute than I did in August, 10 seconds faster per minute than I did in November... The colder it gets, the faster I seem to run.

So it could be possible...

If this injury clears up and I continue my training, without any big hiccups - fingers crossed!, for the Martian Marathon in April...maybe...just maybe...

I'll BQ.

(and if not, I'll be happy just finishing!)

Another Day, No Run

Yup, you got that right...another day gone by and we have day seven of no running.

This morning I got up and worked a little more on the reunion contact list. My 25 Year High School Reunion will be here in just 8 short months. And I'm coordinating the entire thing! I've found about 175 people...just 200ish more to go! LOL!!! Okay, not so funny. I really need to get in gear. Need to start collecting money soon, too. Ugh. Someone tell my why I volunteered to do this???

I spent the rest of the morning and early afternoon cleaning out my computer cabinet - that would be two or three hours of cleaning! I had stuff I had completely forgotten about. Some stuff I'm glad I found - like my daughter's birth certificate! Thought I had lost that for sure. Other stuff I'm not so glad I had to go through - binders and binders of old Friend of the Court papers, divorce papers, old pictures and cards... Why the heck did I keep all that crap???? Should I mention the bag of dog toys and the bag of partially chewed dog bones I pulled off of one, yes, one, shelf?! Oy!

After cleaning, I went out and shoveled the snow. Not too bad. Didn't take long. But I really think I need to work on my core muscles. My back...weak! Last year when I was in the gym lifting, no problems...this year not quite the case. Any who... When I was shoveling I saw some Yaktrak tracks in the snow on my sidewalk! So, I get done and do a little jog on the sidewalk to test out the ole adductor. Not good. I could still feel it a little bit. If I hadn't felt anything, I would have definitely gone for a run. But I'm not going to push it. I know I can get back to it relatively quickly. Plus, I have a race coming up...so wanna be good for the 4 miler on New Years Eve! :)

I miss my daily run. It's my daily therapy. I run out the bad. I run to celebrate the good. I run to see how far I can push myself. I run for others. And I run to just run for the fun of running!

But alas, it was another day and no run.
But maybe tomorrow!

Me

Obviously not ready to date yet.

I am not in a "man loving" place right now.

Definitely not in a very trusting place.

And I don't want to latch on to anyone either...there is a pattern of me doing this.

Latching and not trusting do not make a good mix.

I'm just not ready...and that's okay.

I'm beginning to like being with me! :)

Brooks who?

Stupid, stupid, stupid adductor pull/strain!!!!! My chiropractor said it was some specific muscle or tendon, but I forget, and when she rubbed on it...Yowie!!!! I thought I was going to hit the ceiling. She told me to massage it, but I can't find the sore spot. And I don't have anyone to try and find it for me. Double shucksers! ;)

I am not happy about not running.

I keep checking the weather, but then think who cares...cause I can't run! No need to know what the temp is or which way the wind is blowing if I'm not going to gear up to head outside for a run.

Not to mention trying to temper my food and drink intake. What a pain in the hinney! Literally! I'm not used to paying attention...so I've been eating away. Oink! Oink! LOL!!!

...now where are my favorite yoga pants...

My poor Brooks running shoes...they sure are being neglected. They are just sitting in their spot in my room...a constant reminder of running neglect.

Speaking of neglect, there are my dogs. They are going nuts! Imagine two crazy Siberian Huskies not being walked for five days. Since they are attention mongers as it is...it's gotten 100 times worse. I can't sit at the computer without one of them nosing me to be petted. Oy!

If this thing doesn't heal soon, I'm going to be walking by my running shoes and thinking...

...Brooks who???

The Greatest Gift

To me, the greatest gift one could give is themselves - their time, caring, support and encouragement, their heart, lending an ear or shoulder when needed, a special moment shared here and there...just being there and being a true friend.


My wish to you:

May the season fill your heart with love,

warmth,

happiness

and hope

today

and each day throughout the year.

Christmas Eve Fortune

"Money will come to you when you are doing the right thing" in bed.

Today, at my Aunt's, we all had to read our Christmas Fortune out of a fortune cookie and add "in bed" to it.

Mine is pretty fitting, huh?

Now I just need to find someone to help me make the fortune come true!!!!

(And not by selling myself either - I know you were thinking that Richard!)

Scroogey Sue Grinch

Yupper...that's me...

Waiting for either Cindy Loo Hoo to come warm my heart or the three Ghosts of Christmas to show me how F-ed up past Christmases have been, what a sorry ass I am this year and how much I have to look forward to! ;P

How's that for a great spirit of the season?

Grumpy

This explains a lot ---> “Ones best success comes after their greatest disappointments.” Henry Ward Beecher Then again, I think I expect too much.

Argh, I am in a shitty ass mood today.

I am not a fan of the holidays. Everyone putting on a happy face and pretending everything is perfect and there isn't a care in the world...when five minutes before they were probably cussing someone out in the store, pushing them out of the way, grabbing the last ___ out of some grandma's hand, honking at the slow driver and flipping them off... Fake! It's all fake!!!!!!!

Stupid adductor muscle strain. A freakin' week of no running.

Sent two emails to my friend in LA with no response. I'm thinking of cancelling the trip out there. I don't need the drama or the headache or the games! Men! Ugh!

Top that off with horrible PMS mood swings exacerbated by perimenopause...

Dreading going to my Aunt's house tomorrow...booze is the only thing that will keep me sane!

Add to that two whiney dogs who act like they never get petted or any attention what-so-ever...

...is making for one grumpy ass Sue!!!!!

Unexpected Spice

Hmmmmm...the unexpected.

Unexpected injury. Unexpected phone calls. Unexpected dreams. Unexpected spills. Unexpected....well, lots of things.

My adductor muscle is feeling better than it did this afternoon. Maybe it was just overuse... ::fingers crossed!!!!:: We'll see how it feels tomorrow. I'm gonna take tomorrow off from running, too, just to play it safe.

The other day I talked to Jaba. It was a very civil conversation. A 20 minute conversation about a lot of different things. Part of me is happy we talked civilly...another part of me is wondering what he has lurking up his sleeve.

The other night I dreamt I nearly missed a car crash and drove my car off the road...didn't get hurt. Same night later in the dream or perhaps a different dream I dreamt I rode my bicycle off of the side of a 20 - 30 ft cliff and sort of floated down...didn't get hurt at all.

Shit, I'm spilling stuff all the time. I suppose that's not so unexpected after all! LOL!!!

This passed weekend I saw a sawed off blurry pic of me in someones singles profile. Nice and tacky! Ah well... Initially I was pissed off...now I could give two shits. Time to move on to bigger and better things. I deserve it damn it!

Unexpected migraine Saturday night. Ugh.

Unexpected good time Sunday...and sort of expected visit from him at work today. Nice to see him since he'll be gone on vacation and away for work until Mid-January-ish. Completely unexpected that I enjoy spending time with him and talking with him.

Unexpected stuff with my daughter this evening...screwing up my evening plans...

Unexpected can be good and unexpected can be bad...

Overall, I'd have to say that sometimes we need the unexpected...it adds spice to what could be a rather mundane life!

Adductor Melt Down

OMG, I am freaking out!  

 

Last night during my run, my left adductor muscles (groin) were bothering me.  But I just ran through it.  The pain would come and go.  I really wasn't paying too much attention to it - too busy dodging cars and ice since the sidewalks were too dangerous to run on!  Today...I can feel it when I walk!  Twinge!  Twinge!  Twinge!  And it seems to be getting worse as time goes on today.  ARGH!!!!

 

I am not happy about this at all!!!!

 

Apparently, it takes anywhere from 2 - 6 weeks for healing.  WTF? 

 

I mean, WTF am I supposed to do without running????? 

 

Running is the only constant thing in my life right now and without running...without all my running highs...without all my running endorphins...without all my running off of all the cookies and goodies...combined with the perimenopause...

 

AHHHHHH!!!!!! 

 

Melt down!

 

Please let me only down and out for a couple days...I NEED to run. :(

Let Me Off!!!!

Wow. What a difference a day makes. I feel like an emotional train wreck right now. I swear it must have something to do with perimenopause. Unreal. I mean, the week before has always been a wild emotional rollercoaster of an ordeal. But now...it's just plain unbearable.

Weekend was good except for the migraine on Saturday. (hmmmm...I got one a month ago, oh lord, this sounds perimenpausal, too, now that I think about it. UGH!)

Today, I got home from work, put on my running gear and ran 4.67 miles outside. It was a great run. I felt awesome and elated - you know, the runner's high! - and was dancing and singing around the house after I got home. Two or three hours later...balling my eyes out.

Now here I sit pondering WTF is going on. And searching the web! LOL!!!

Sure enough everything I've been experiencing...perimenopause... Hot flashes (night sweats), irregular periods, mood swings, difficulty sleeping, worsening PMS, fuzzy thinking, breast pain, unwanted hair growth, stiffness/joint pain (although this could be running induced), craving sweets/carbs, weight gain (yes, even with all the running, I've gained weight)...

I just want this torrid ride to stop...

Someone please let me off!!!!

Dear Richard...

Since this is how you keep tabs on me....

Had a fab time on my date with SpongeBob (long story) tonight!

As you know, we went ice skating (I finally found the right place!!!) and then out for a bite to eat...didn't get home until ~11! Once I got home, I had to bake some cheesey potatoes for my potluck at work tomorrow, which just came out of the oven, and now I'm off to bed.

Just thought I'd let you and the rest of the world know! :)

(sorry, I couldn't resist! LOL!!!!)

Hmmmm...

Yeah.... Hmmm...

Things that make you go hmmmm... Like men that make you go hmmmm... Where the heck are they????? OMG, I'm dieing over here! I'm in my 40's! The prime of my life! I need a cub and quick! LOL!!!

Seriously though...things have been going along. I've been doing pretty good on my own. Ya know...the single life.

I've been doing a lot of running. Yes, even in the cold Michigan weather. Even in the negative wind chill weather. Even in the 30 mph gusting wind weather.... I'll be running 3-4 tomorrow and then 9 - 12 this weekend. Gotta keep going to be ready for the Martian Marathon so I can qualify for BOSTON!!!!

Any who...this isn't about running. So....

I went out tonight... It was okay. No big spark. No this is the one. No I can't wait to see him again.

I think I have a date on Sunday. Not sure if it's a real date or not...it's a long story. But I sure am looking forward to it! I've known this guy at work for a few years and we are both single now... So we're doing something on Sunday...tbd. I'll let ya know how it goes!

I dunno. I'm not ready to get involved...but I feel like I want someone around.

I don't mind being alone...but I miss having someone in my life.

I keep going back and forth.

I know I'm not mentally ready to be in a relationship right now.

But...

Maybe I just need a good man to make me go....

Hmmmmm... ;)

Hee, hee, hee!

Crazy Runner Chick!

Not cold (35*F), nor wind, nor drizzle (yes, drizzle for most of the run), nor black ice...not to mention dreariness/lack of sun will keep me from my run!

 

That was Sunday's run ---> 8.4 miles dodging black ice in the drizzly dreary weather. And why is it I only saw male runners on the road/path yesterday???? Hmmm…one was pretty cute! Alas, I can't tackle all the men I see running down Hines Drive!

 

Last Thursday I ran 3.48 miles in 15*F (feels like -2*F) with 39mph winds before a Christmas Party. Wow, that was cold and rough! I need some better gloves for that kind of weather…for sure! Saturday I ran a quick 6.5 miles.

 

I'm thinking I actually like this winter weather running! :) I know I like it better than running in the summer heat!

 

I do want to get a pair of compression tights, but at ~$100 a pop…I'm gonna have to wait until after the holidays. Ohhhh and not to mention the new Brooks Defyance 3 are out now!!!! I'm going to have to go test them out at a running shoe store! And I have a feeling that I'm gonna wanna pair of those, too!  Drats...mo money, mo money, mo money!  You'd think running would be relatively inexpensive...but NO!  Argh!  LOL!!!!!

 

Sheesh, today is a day of rest…and all I can think about is running!

 

I am a Crazy Runner Chick!!!!

Slacker!

Wow...can't believe it's been a week since I've written last...

So last Saturday a.m., I ran a 5K Jingle Bell run and ran my fastest time ever! 23:35 overall which is a 7:36/m pace!!!! WoooHooo!!!! Should I mention it was only 21* F????

I have to admit that I'm getting tired of going to these races alone. I would love to find a running buddy who shares my passion and tromps about with me at all these things. I see everyone around me with a group or friend...and then I start feeling lonely... Not to mention no one at the finish to share my personal victories.

Sunday I stopped into Beyond Reality and got myself a new tattoo!!! Completely impulsive and I had only planned on getting suggestions for a design...but then decided to go for it! She's a Runner Girl to celebrate finishing my first marathon (26.2 miles).



Last night, I ran in my first snow of the year. It was soooo exhilarating! Okay, so it was only flurries, but enough so that the flakes were flying up my nose. Ick!

My next race is on New Year's Eve...a four miler... I decided I'm done with dating, done with the drama...just done...with everything to do with men for a while....so, why not race on New Year's Eve?!?!?! LOL!!!

The Martian Marathon is in April 2010...18 weeks away. My training started this week and out of the shoot it's is pretty much the same distances I've been running the past four or five weeks, so I should be fine. I've been considering adding some speed training and trying to better my time so that I can qualify for BOSTON! Wow...to BQ (Boston Qualify)... A dream... A goal... All I need to do is better my marathon time by 18 minutes. Yup, that's all! LOL!!! ;P Technically, if I better the last five miles time - that would shave off 8ish minutes...then it's just 10! ;)

Got my Yaktraks in the mail today! Which means no worries for ice and snow! But I do want to get a pair of CW-X compression insulator tights. At $100 a piece, I'm gonna have to wait until after Christmas. I bought this killer Brooks jacket...wore it last night...worth every penny of $150!

What else....

Work is super crazy busy. Very thankful for my job...but very much looking forward to Christmas Break.

Christmas... I'm a humbug. I have a two foot tree on my mantel. That's about it for decoration. Really not in the spirit of things this year... I'm thankful and content...but seem a bit unsettled.

Really need to get back working on the reunion... July will be here before I know it. I still have to find a couple hundred people...ugh.

I think that's about it for now...

Gotta do a little better at posting more often and not being such a slacker! ;P

Here Waiting.

I have so much I want to say, but I'm not going to out of respect for not splashing Paul's life all over my blog. Let's just say that I'm done...it's over...and good-bye.

No more looking.

No more searching.

No more trying to make things work.

No more time spent on BLEEP, BLEEP, BLEEPERS! ;D

If love wants to find me...I'll be here waiting...