Me, scared?

Been very busy as of late!

Last week I was off of work...and extremely swamped with home improvement projects. I got the bug from Paul...and have no clue what made me jump in with both feet. But that's me, jump right in with both feet with little thought to what could possibly happen or go wrong...because, of course, all will go well without a hitch. Ha, ha, ha! ;P

Basically I spent the past week painting, running and contemplating my life...

I started out thinking I would paint the living room. I got a bunch of those samplers and had big blotches of paint all over my living room wall. Blotches are a far cry from a sample paper hanging on the wall for the past year. Yes, that's right...I had a sample color slip hanging on the wall for the past year...and have done nothing until now.

Well after the blotches of paint on the living room wall, instead of choosing a color and going with it, I put some blotches on the kitchen wall, too!

Let's see... one red wall in the kitchen...one primer coat and two coats of color... Think I still may need a third coat of red. Then I decided that I couldn't leave the other three walls white, so they are now a nice carmel brown. ;P That took about three or four days...

Then there's the foyer, living room and hall way... A nice milk chocolate brown...or rather cinnamon spice to be exact! Two coats...may need a third.

Also thought I could refinish the fireplace in the living room...started that prior to painting. What a mess!!!! Wound up just sanding the top down after trying to strip away the paint. A little delay, hence painting the kitchen first.

Throw in running four to six miles a day....

And today, Paul stopped by and tore out the carpet and padding in the living room, foyer and hallway for me... Nice hardwood floors underneath all that! :)

Soooo...still have trim to paint in the kitchen, foyer, living room and hallway. Still have staples and tack board to pull out in the foyer, living room and hallway...have done quite a bit of staple pulling after my four mile run today, but got tired and gave up. ;P Should I mention that the kitchen ceiling now needs painting because the blue tape pulled the ceiling paint off and I now have a nice sporadic mint green trim around the edges of it?!?!? ARGH - I actually cried when that happened.

Did a lot of contemplating this past week, too. Had a really wonderful weekend away with Paul... And I'm scared. Scared of getting hurt again. But we are both giving a lot of effort into making things work between us...and we do get along... I'm just really, really scared about getting hurt...really scared. Ah well...nothing ventured, nothing gained. And I know what I'm getting into...eyes wide open...and heart opening up again, too. Hence me being scared. Plus, Paul is going to be really busy with work and kids the next month or two...and since quality time is a biggie for me, so I have to remind myself to not take things personally...which I have a tendancy to do even when it's not meant to be that way.

I have my first race this weekend... A 5K. Should be okay. Paul has been roller blading with me while I run. I like that because it pushes me to run faster. Next month I have an 8K and a 5K...and then the Half Marathon in October... Maybe the 10K Turkey Trot in November.

Blah, blah, blah... I've been putting off writing because I haven't really been able to figure out what was bugging me. I like doing things for myself. I enjoy seeing the results. But...it's time to let someone in and let them be more a part of my life...and have I mentioned that I'm scared??? LOL!!!

Ah well, better wrap things up and head to bed...