Only Another Year

Well, I think the final chapter in the Friend of the Court has been written and the book is closed.

Both my daughter and I have given up any hope that FoC will wake up and smell the coffee. We were supposed to go to court on Monday, but after discussing it, we decided that it just wasn't worth the aggravation and emotional distress...

I have really mixed feelings on the entire situation.

I truly had lost all hope that FoC would realize the horrible mistake they made in not allowing my daughter to live with me at least part time. But after two Family Evaluations, numerous court appearances, dismissal of the Child Protective Services investigation even after the Donkey Face admitted to grabbing my daughter's breasts and butt, etc...and no action on the part of the FoC...it's very clear they are not going to do anything.

I just can't see spending another $xxx going to court and having them take no action what-so-ever.

I also feel like I've let down my daughter. That I've failed her in some way. It just kills me that there is absolutely nothing I can do to make her life better.

I know I've tried...but it doesn't seem to have mattered or made one iota of a difference. Nothing came of it. People are either blind to reality or just plain fucking stupid moronic idiots. I tend to think the latter.

It's just very disappointing to me.

I'm sure Jaba thinks ah, ha, I won again. Gosh, I hate that man. I hate him for all the shit he's put my daughter through. He's such a selfish bastard. I wish he would open up his eyes and see what he's done. But I know he won't. Again, very disappointing...not for me, but for my daughter...

Everything Jaba has done over the past years has greatly impacted my daughter. She barely tells me that she loves me...she says that she just doesn't believe in it any longer. She told me the other weekend that she didn't want to take voice lessons because she didn't want to give Jaba something more to take away from her. How extremely sad and heart breaking is that...and how it cut me to the quick to hear her say that.

The whole thing just makes me sick to my stomach.

Hopefully, my daughter and I can continue to move forward and not be weighed down with the burden of more hearings...

If only there was something more I could do...but how can you fight a system that is broken?

In fact, one of the last things my daughter said to me about the situation was... Mom, I only have another year to deal with things. It just made me want to cry.

Only another year...

God I hope it passes quickly and with as little drama as possible.