Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Text, Text, Text...
All-be-it that he does have his kids full time this week and they do have lots of after school activities...but come on! There has to be at least one break during the where he could type out seven digits, hit talk and have a five minute conversation, right????
Okay, okay...
I'm hanging my head in shame. I admit that this is the ONLY thing I have to complain about right now. And here I am doing it! LOL!!!
Unbelievable. Will I ever be 100% satisfied with any relationship? Probably not! Oy! ;P
Seriously thought...Texting is one thing. But actually communicating and conversing with another person is another and I like to TALK to a person not text two sentences every so often... ::sigh:: Is that too much to ask? To have a five minute conversation at least once during the day? Especially with someone you care about? AHHHHH!!!! LOL!!!
Text, text, text...here we go!!!!
All Clear
I made it through yet another round of cuts. It's been four or five or six in the past four or so years...
I'm feeling very fortunate that I made it through this "all clear".
Monday, January 26, 2009
One Month Tomorrow
Saturday a.m., Paul picked me up with his daughter, S, and off we went to watch her basketball game. S just turned 14 and was pretty quiet the entire time. I was a bit nervous and quiet myself.
For me it was huge to be meeting her! Like I told Paul, it's one thing for us to be seeing each other and dating...but once we meet the kids, then they are involved, too. I also told Paul that it's taking the relationship to the next level...which it really a big deal.
Any who...the game ends and we are on our way home; Paul asks if I would mind going to the Dollar Store and I say no. Do we stop at the store...no! We go to his house. In we go and hello, P! P is his youngest daughter who just turned 11. Paul and P are working on a project and need stuff from the Dollar Store...so off we go.
It was all good. We stopped at Family Dollar - ICK! And I told Paul and his daughter as much. I suggested Dollar Tree, so we went and found most of what they needed for the project. After that they dropped me off and apparently his daughter said that Sue does know almost everything. LOL!!! Paul was teasing that I am right most of the time...and guess P thought so, too! ;)
Paul had suggested a movie later Saturday night, but I could tell logistics of taxiing around the kids was wearing on him; so I suggested we grab a movie and watch it at his place. He thought that sounded like a good idea... See I do know all! LOL!!!!
Any who... I picked up a bottle of Shiraz and headed over to his place. We took S to her softball practice and then went and grabbed a movie at Blockbuster. We drank some wine, watched the movie and well...nothing XXX, but we had a little adult time before we had to go pick up S. :)
While we were picking up S, Paul's oldest, R, called and asked to be picked up. R is his son who will soon be 16. Off we go to pick up R and a friend.
So...I got to meet all of Paul's kids! The three of us had lots of fun picking on Paul. For some unknown reason, I let loose with the Paulywog nickname. S chimed in with Pauly wants a cracker? And we were all laughing and having a great time.
Got back to Paul's place and popped in another movie. Watched the movie, had some pizza and off to home I went.
It was a good day. And unprompted regarding meeting them all on my part. I thought I would only get to meet S, but turns out I got to meet the entire clan. I didn't get too much interaction with the kids, but according to Paul, they thought I was nice and was "in"! :) I thought they were nice, too.
So far, so good. In fact, on my facebook, when I got home I typed in that "ain't nothin' like the real thing baby...ain't nothin' like the real thing." Like the old Cocoa Cola commercial...only better! :)
Tomorrow it will be a month that Paul and I have been dating. I really like him. And he treats me well. And I have been trying to be more open regarding how I feel about the way things are going. He teases me that I'm like a cracked egg and he's getting me to pull my own shell back more and more... Which is what is actually happening.
One Month...wow, time sure flies when you are having fun! :)
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
More of the same...
Boy, I am not very good about posting entries lately. Note to self - try to do a better job!
Things have been going pretty good lately.
Daughter is doing okay with no major melt downs with Jaba or Donkey Face.
Doggies haven't really eaten anything they shouldn't have as of late.
Things with Paulywog (as he's been nicknamed by my sis) are going well. I've been giving some thought about meeting his kids…so that has to say something, right?
I found out that I snore, but it's a cute little snore. Oy! Now how come no one else has told me this before?!?! Sheesh! LOL!!!
Work is…well, work. The bloodshed has begun and folks are starting to be let go. I was doing pretty good with things, but I'm feeling a bit nervous now. It's actually happening and I've tried to put it out of my mind, but now it's here and people I know are being let go. It's a very sad state of affairs. I've also been thinking about what would happen to me if I were to be let go. I'd surely lose my house… I don't know what I would do nor do I know how long it would take to find a job…probably a long time… Ah well, no sense in getting too worked up about it till it happens, right?
Guess I'll head to the gym after work and try to get rid of what little stress I have...
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Only Another Year
Both my daughter and I have given up any hope that FoC will wake up and smell the coffee. We were supposed to go to court on Monday, but after discussing it, we decided that it just wasn't worth the aggravation and emotional distress...
I have really mixed feelings on the entire situation.
I truly had lost all hope that FoC would realize the horrible mistake they made in not allowing my daughter to live with me at least part time. But after two Family Evaluations, numerous court appearances, dismissal of the Child Protective Services investigation even after the Donkey Face admitted to grabbing my daughter's breasts and butt, etc...and no action on the part of the FoC...it's very clear they are not going to do anything.
I just can't see spending another $xxx going to court and having them take no action what-so-ever.
I also feel like I've let down my daughter. That I've failed her in some way. It just kills me that there is absolutely nothing I can do to make her life better.
I know I've tried...but it doesn't seem to have mattered or made one iota of a difference. Nothing came of it. People are either blind to reality or just plain fucking stupid moronic idiots. I tend to think the latter.
It's just very disappointing to me.
I'm sure Jaba thinks ah, ha, I won again. Gosh, I hate that man. I hate him for all the shit he's put my daughter through. He's such a selfish bastard. I wish he would open up his eyes and see what he's done. But I know he won't. Again, very disappointing...not for me, but for my daughter...
Everything Jaba has done over the past years has greatly impacted my daughter. She barely tells me that she loves me...she says that she just doesn't believe in it any longer. She told me the other weekend that she didn't want to take voice lessons because she didn't want to give Jaba something more to take away from her. How extremely sad and heart breaking is that...and how it cut me to the quick to hear her say that.
The whole thing just makes me sick to my stomach.
Hopefully, my daughter and I can continue to move forward and not be weighed down with the burden of more hearings...
If only there was something more I could do...but how can you fight a system that is broken?
In fact, one of the last things my daughter said to me about the situation was... Mom, I only have another year to deal with things. It just made me want to cry.
Only another year...
God I hope it passes quickly and with as little drama as possible.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Date 5 and 6
Oh let's see…
Date 5 - I got to Paul's Friday around 7ish and he cooked dinner at his place. He made grilled salmon with a honey/pecan glaze, veggies and tatters - pretty tasty! I brought two bottles of wine as I wasn't sure what he'd like - and he liked both. ;) For dessert, we made chocolate covered strawberries and let them chill while we ate. After dinner, we watched a couple movies and had a few strawberries. I didn't get home until 3 a.m.! Oy boy!
Date 6 - Blizzard here in Michigan this passed Saturday! Paul got tickets for the Wings game, so I suggest we take my car down since it's AWD. Paul drove us down, parked and we grabbed a beer before the game at this little dive bar, then took a shuttle over to the game. We had a couple beers, watched the Wings beat Buffalo - row 8 - awesome seats!, shuttled on back and drove slowly home. We decided to grab a pizza since we hadn't eaten and then took it back to his place. Another late night…
Paul may be coming over tonight after his floor hockey game…
We have plans for dinner and a movie on Thursday…
And we have possible plans to go to the Detroit International Auto Show with my friends Richard and Debbie on Saturday. Just depends on whether or not he can swing a sitter for his youngest.
Things seem to be going really well… :)
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Time 'n Good Things
The days just flew by...
I can't believe all that's happened in such a short period of time..
My daughter tells me that I'm no longer cool to hang out with and that only little kids do stuff with their mom like ice skating and bowling. What a crusher! While I know it's true, it hurt to hear it. Ah well, she does talk to me about everything and sometimes I think "TMI!", but it's better than her not talking to me at all. In a few years time, I envision us going out and doing things again...maybe not the same things, but more grown up and different things. Gosh I miss havin' her around when she's not here. Even though we may not do a lot together, it's nice having her here...it makes my house a home.
The whole drama with Drew, the Cowardly Liar. Good riddance! See time does heal all wounds. What an a-hole! And karma is a biatch, so I'm guessing he'll get his in the end anyway...it's all a matter of time...Eh, heh, heh, heh!!!! <=== Wicked Witch Laugh
Getting out more with my friends and reconnecting with folks I haven't talked to in ages. Gotta love Facebook! One of my best high school friends and I reconnected, talked for what seemed like hours the other night... She may be coming to MI soon and I'm so excited to get to see her! :)
Meeting Paul. :) Who knows where this is going to go...but I am enjoying it so far. Guess I just have to wait and see...but I'm good with that!
...it's all about time...and good things come to those who wait...well, seems I've been waiting a long time now...I'm due, right?! ;)
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Profile Gone!
Plus, I was contemplating taking mine off regardless of whether or not I mentioned it to him. So I went to look today and...
IT'S GONE!
I don't even have to ask him! :):):) ::happy dance::
(Oh and for the record, mine's gone, too. ;))
Looking Forward to Date Four
Yesterday was a weird day for me to start with - got up ran some errands, came home, made some lunch and started watching a movie. It was around 3ish that I noticed I was freezing. Check the thermostat...57... Check furnace...not working. I called a few peeps and finally gave in and texted Paul. In between texts, my friend Richard called back and was in front of my house by the end of the conversation. By this time, thermostat reads 55! Paul texted back that he could come over at 5 to look at it... In the meantime, Richard diagnosed that it was the ignitor. So after his workout, Paul was nice enough to pick it up for me (he has friends!), come over at 6pm and install it. Final cost $38!
After Paul fixes me up, we head off to the Pistons Game which started at 8pm. Awesome seats, again. Probably about 10 rows back from the court kitty-corner off of one of the baskets. We walked around a bit, watched game, watched people, had a couple beers and shared a pretzel....then left with like a minute left to beat traffic in parking lot. :) After that we picked up a pizza and headed over to Paul's place. We watched three movies and wound up snuggling on the couch the rest of the night and into the morning.
I give Paul a lot of credit because he was a perfect gentlemen. I had told him that I wanted to take it slow because I liked him and hoped he could understand. He said yes and felt the same. This was on New Years Eve. (Oh, New Years Eve was date number two - Pistons game at 3pm, dinner and drinks at my fav restaurant, back to my place for drinks and peanut butter cookie baking and ringing in the new year)
It's a really GOOD feeling liking someone and knowing that they like you back because they SHOW it - not just by things they say, but by their actions as well. :) It makes me smile! :) And it makes me happy and optimistic...
Phewie on Drew! I hate to even admit that I have been missing him. Lord only knows why because he treated me like shit and lied to my face. Ah well, guess all wounds take a little time to heal.
Should I mention that Paul went to high school with Drew or rather Andy as he was known back then? Paul knows the whole story and think the wanker got what he deserved.
Seems all three dates I've had with Paul have been marathon dates - 9 hours first date, 11ish hours second date and third date 14 hours! Yowza! LOL!!!
...I wonder what date four will have in store for us...
All I know is I'm looking forward to it.