Time to Leap?

Seven months...it's been seven months since Paul and I started dating.

I love him...and I want to tell him...but I'm scared...I don't want to get hurt...and I don't want to be rejected...

Paul will be gone off and on the next month.

He's not even gone yet and I miss him...

Sooner or later I'm going to have to take a leap of faith.

No Title Today

Boy, it was a busy, busy weekend!  

 

Saturday I took Zeus to the vet for his yearly check-up and some shots.  I also asked the vet about a groomer in the area because there is no way I can groom him myself.  He is not only a wussie boy, he runs away and snaps at me every time I try to brush him.  He runs even if he sees a brush!  LOL!!!!  Soooo...vet. gave me some sedatives for him.  Nighty, night buddy-boy!  After the vet, I picked up Paul and headed over to Hines Drive for an 8 mile run/rollerblade trek.  125 minutes...a little over 8 miles...not bad time for my first 8 mile run.  After that I hung out with my daughter until she bailed on me...so I texted Paul asking if he wasn't planning anything with his son to let me know because I didn't feel like being alone.  I do end up going over there for dinner with him and his son.  When I got there and asked why they didn't go hit some golf balls, Paul said that they could do that anytime...they didn't want me to be alone... Awwwwww.... :)  So we had ribs and watched a movie.  It was a nice night.

 

Sunday I get up and leave for my girlfriend's house around 9 a.m. for a five mile run.  After that I spend about two hours running errands.  Once done with that, I head outside for some yardwork - cut grass, pick up poop, weed, weed, weed...  Paul stops by with the weed whacker and helps me out, since I don't have one...awwww... ;)  He also helps me put up the vertical blinds in the living room - hoorah!  After that, I pulled out most of the tacky strips in the living room with the tiny and moved the furniture back into place.  Yippee!  Once done with all of that, I shower, run up to the tanning salon, make dinner and finally sit down at 8:15ish...  Phew!

 

This a.m. I got up and felt like I was hit by a truck.  Ugh!  My entire body hurt.  How is it that I can run, run, run with no problem and do a few things around the house and wind up being sorer than sore?!?!  Oy!  Too many squats pulling weeds; that's what I think! ;P

 

For the rest of this week, I'm not sure what is going on.  Today and tomorrow I may run with Paul.  I probably will because if I don't, then I probably won't see him for a while!  He has his son all week, plus Wednesday he has softball, Thursday he has golf and then may leave for up north with his son until Saturday p.m. or Sunday a.m...spend time with the girls, who are out of state for a tournament, then he's off for a work roadtrip for most of the month of August...  :( 

 

I'm sort of bothered that I won't be seeing him for so long...  I really am at a point in my life where I don't like being alone.  I want to spend time with someone and be with someone.  I know that Paul isn't at the same point I am...I just don't know how long I can wait for him to catch up to me.  Plus, he has lots of other distractions in the evening - kids, golf, softball, me!...and I don't.  I have my running, but that doesn't take all night or hours of a night...and my daughter, well, even when she's with me, she's not with me...she's with her boyfriend.  ::sigh::  I guess I just feel frustrated right now and there really isn't anything I can do about it.  It's just frustrating.

 

Well, since I can't do anything about it...gonna try not to focus on it.  Lots of other things to keep me "busy"...painting ceiling, painting trim, working in the yard, more running...all these things will keep me busy, but they'll also just give me more time to "think" about things!  LOL!!!!

 

Ah well...onward! ;)

Uncanny

Hmmmm... I just took this facebook quiz and wow....

Here are the results...

Even though you've been told more than once that fairytales don't exist, you just won't let it go: you're a big romantic and you carry on waiting for them. A smile, a bunch of flowers, a candle-lit dinner, a sensual kiss under a starry sky... some would say it's an old-fashioned view but you love it! You fall in love easily but you're a natural worrier and are always afraid of being abandoned. You have a continual need to be reassured in your relationships, which can sometimes be tiresome for your partners. This easy-going, affectionate person reassures you. You like snuggling up in their arms. They are of a faithful nature, and by their side, you will no longer be afraid of being abandoned. They help you to express your emotions and to liberate yourself from your fears. Before meeting them, you feel like a little girl/boy but they enable you to gain confidence and, if they were to ask you to be the mother/father of their children, you'd gladly accept!

Blah, blipity, blah, blah, blah...

I really need to try to be more diligent about my entries. Seems they get farther and farther apart...

Pretty uneventful week for the most part.

Running:
Monday - 4 miles with Paul rollerblading.
Wednesday and Friday - speed work on the treadmill - 3 miles each and then sprints afterwards on the track.
Tuesday and Thursday - nada
Plan for weekend: Saturday 7-8 miles and Sunday 4 miles

Been feeling a little insecure lately... Trying to feel secure with my insecurity and not doing too bad a job.

Paul and I are doing good. :)

My two weeks with my daughter ends on Sunday. :( Even though I haven't really seen her - her and her boyfriend are connected at the hip - I'm gonna miss her...

Doggies...driving me nuts today.

Zoey has a cut on her front paw and I took her to the vet yesterday...visit, rabies shot, three prescriptions...$160 I take Zeus for his shot tomorrow. Fun, fun, fun...

Oh I never wrote about the great escape, did I? Tuesday night, daughter comes home...both dogs get out...chase them all over the neighborhood... 1 a.m. Unreal. Thank goodness when I finally caught up with them, Zeus came to me and then Zoey did... I think I would have blown every gasket known to man if something would have happened to one of them.

Ah well, it's late...and I'm tired... Just waiting for my daughter to get home...like I said, don't really see her and I miss her...

Blah, blah, ::yawn::, blah...

Great Weekend

What a great weekend! :)

 

Friday, Paul and I went and saw Kid Rock.  We had a great time! :)  Maybe too good a time because Saturday a.m. we both woke up feeling like crap!  Apparently, we had a couple too many drinkie-poos...  Whoopsie! ;P 

 

Saturday was pretty much wasted...and we decided to go see "The Hangover" to go along with our state of being...  It was completely inappropriate and completely hilarious!  After that we went to Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner - I had a $10 off coupon. :)  It was pretty early, so we stopped at Blockbuster and picked up "Horseman" which was just okay, as well as, bought a couple CDs.  We dropped "Gran Torino" at Paul's mom's and then went home and watched the "Horseman".

 

Sunday was a much more productive day! :)  We got up and went out for breakfast.  Paul did his thing while I ran some errands and talked to my sis.  We got back together around 2:30 and drove over to make a six mile trek.  I ran and Paul rollerbladed.  We made it in about 61 or 62 minutes...I forget!  Not too bad...  I dropped Paul off, went home, did some laundry, relaxed a bix, showered and headed over to Paul's to grill up some dinner.  We talked and cooked and ate...then ran out for some ice cream...mmmmmm...!  Good thinkin', Paul! :)  Back to his place to watch the other movie purchased - "War of the Worlds"...Ooooo...spooky! ;P

 

Now it's Monday...  Paul said he'd blade with me Monday and Tuesday while I run, so I'm looking forward to a good four mile run today! 

 

All-in-all it was a really great weekend! :)

Love for Me

Happy...

Scared...

Falling in...

Not sure what to do or think...

Don't want to get hurt again...

The unknown...

Here I am...

No looking back...

Trying not to look forward...

Living in the here and now...

It's hard for me...

But I have to do it...

All for happiness...

Love...

Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end. ~Author Unknown

True love stories never have endings. ~Richard Bach

Love unlocks doors and opens windows that weren't even there before. ~Mignon McLaughlin

You know you're in love when you don't want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams. ~Dr. Seuss

Just because somebody doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. ~Author Unknown

Anyone can catch your eye, but it takes someone special to catch your heart. ~Author Unknown

True love is when you put someone on a pedestal, and they fall - but you are there to catch them. ~Author Unknown

Love is not blind - it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less. ~Julins Gordon

To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world. ~Author Unknown

It's so easy to fall in love but hard to find someone who will catch you. ~Author Unknown

Come live in my heart and pay no rent. ~Samuel Lover

If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden. ~Claudia Ghandi

Falling in love is so hard on the knees. ~Aerosmith

Love is a gross exaggeration of the difference between one person and everybody else. ~George Bernard Shaw